Dizzy's Days

It is a go~~~

2006-10-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

Well I went up to Newport last Tuesday (10-17) and had a meeting with the administrator of the college, filled out my paper work (Pell grant stuff) and got a tour of the place. It is very nice.
I got a letter back on Friday, and I am not elligable for a grant, however I am elligable for a loan. The program costs $4800.00 and I can get $4200.00 the letter said there would be a out of pocket cost of $415.00 ok so the math doesn't work, but we will get it figured out.
Girls I am going to do this. And I can't even begin to tell ya how excited I am. My classes start on January 8th. With an orentation on the 3rd. So as of the new year I will be starting a new chapter in my life. And at almost 40 it feels pretty strange, but in a good way.
Part of my admissions packet is I have to interview 3 seperate people in the nail tech industry, and after interviewing my first one, I found out that I will be making double what I made full time where I am at now. And that was after expences were met. (and I figured pretty high on those) So again I am pretty excited about this.
So anyhow I just wanted to update ya all on this....Diz doing the dance here, LOL. :D

I have news....

2006-10-11T04:37:00.000-07:00

Not huge news or anything but news and I just need to get it out before I explode, lol. I called my sister last week (did I mention there is a college 15 minutes from her home?) I can't remember but anyways, we talked for like 3 hours, wow huh and I asked her if she would talk with her hubby, and see if it would be ok for me to stay with them Monday through Friday so I could go to this school, and she and hubby said it was cool with them, and then she called the college and made an appointment for me to go in and check things out, and get my paper work going ie see if I am ellligable for a Pell grant. If the Pell grant doesn't work, I will take a loan out and use my retirement to start paying that off after I am done, so girls what started out a "just a dream" more than likely will be a reality. My plan is to start in January, and be done in April.
OMG I am just in complete shock that I am really going to do this.
Only draw back (and it is a biggie) I will have to leave my family during the week...It is a hard thing to think about...and to be honest I am feeling guilty, but I feel I have to do this. I can not stay where I am at. I don't know, (insert doubt here) anyways, now I need to figure out what to wear to something like this...hmmmm, oh well, I guess I will get it all figured out. LOL, hey wish me luck I will need it. :D

Just a tiny update~~

2006-09-30T07:06:00.000-07:00

I went to the Doctor's yesterday, and things are progressing well...I have only lost 8 pounds(kind of a bummer as I wanted to lose more) however, my cholesterol is down by 15% pretty good I think. And the best part of all this is I feel so much better, who knows maybe for me it was just a matter of finding the right foods therefore getting the right vitamins, and nutrients....In any case I have been feeling prety great for the last few days~~~ but I also only worked 5 hours in the last week, could there be a connetion~~HHHHHMMMMM gunna have to think on this awhile.
Work front, well it is about the SSDD kinda thing, it feels as if they only want me there when they can use me, and stupid thing is I am letting them, but I guess fear is holding me back from finding another job (at least that is what I think it is) I really don't know. Ok gunna have to think on that too, goodness so much to think on so little time LOL ;)
Terri, girl I miss you and have been thinking about you alot this week, ((((HUGS)))) girl, and if you need anything shoot me an email, I can call ya now if you want or need. Remember I am always here for you.
UMM, well I can't think of anything else to tell ya except hang in there people, and don't forget I love hearing from ya!! :)

Been ages huh?

2006-08-20T08:13:00.000-07:00

Ok so 6 months worth of a post here~~Prolly gunna be long, but *giggle* that is ok. Sorry to not have kept up with this...but ya know how things go.

Anyhow to start off: My heartfelt congratulations go out to Patty, and Janis~~Wow, girls I am so glad you found happiness. (yes, I have been reading)

I have a few things of interest on my homefront here: First and foremost is I finally found a job I would like to do I want to become a Nail Tech, you know the lady that does you manicures and pedicures, we have opened up a couple of Day Spas here, and I just love the atmosphere~~would be sooo calming at least I think it would and if you take into consideration of where I work now, BIG DIFFERENCE! I need cash though, $4000.00 worth. I could do my training on weekends, not losing income, and just hopefully slide right into a new career. Any ideas of where I can get that kind of cash?? I don't think I would be able to get a grant or scholership (as don't they normally go by "household income" mine is the pits but hubby's is pretty good) anyhow ideas would be great. :D I am really wanting this bad, I just don't know how to get there. And you know if feels great to finally have a goal~~just for me, which goes into my other news: I have been in thearapy for the last 4 months or so...it is working wonders in my outlook on life. If interested it is called The Work by Byron Katie just type in your search engine and you can and it is a wonderful way of looking at stress, problems, ect...it has finally alowed my to free myself of some of my "baggage"

And speaking of "baggage" LOL I am working on that also, the physical kind, Last Wednesday I stared the South Beach Diet, reccomended by my Doc. UMMM sad new here, my brother had a heart attack, at 41(only 2 years older than me)it made me realize that I NEED TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE!!! oh btw he is fine, but is now having to watch his diet and stuff.

Those are the three major changes in my life, and I tell ya I feel great!! :D Anyhow I hope to hear back from you guys once in awhile, I miss gabbin with you guys.

((((BIG HUGS TO ALL)))))
Liz

Party here~~

2006-02-24T03:51:00.000-08:00

LOL, tonight is my son's birthday party. Right after school, Joey will take 5 "big boys" to the beach to catch the sunset, and build a bon-fire. Then it is home to have pizza, munchies, and movies...compleate with presents, and cake. With a sleep over. Alls I can say is I hope I bought enough "munchies" LMAO, I don't know it will be close. As them boys sure can eat. My "baby" turns 15, and the word baby no longer applies, he is now as tall, if not taller than his dad (5'11") and I have no clue as to where the time went, but I look at him, and can't believe how grown up he is getting. Siiiiigh, so to my "baby"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SON!!! :) (((((HUGS)))))

Our Date night~~~

2006-02-19T09:33:00.000-08:00

Ok, so call me corney, cheesey, or whatever~~But for valentines day, I bought my husband and I tickets to an Air Supply concert~~remember that Joey and I got together an 1984 so, yep you guessed it, Air Supply has been pretty much been "background" music of our relationship~~So when I heard that they were coming to my town I went ahead and got the tickets. Thinking to surprise hubby. Also remember that, I live in sticksville, and to go see any concert of worth, we have to drive,2-4 hours and or stay somewhere else~~So anyhow, IT WAS GREAT!! I know you all are prolly laughing you heads off right about now, but what a difference a small venue makes. The place that held the concert was our casino and the room that we were in, seats about 600 people at most...also it was an inside concert, and I had never been to an inside concert. So it was pretty cool for us. I had to laugh though as these guys are "getting on in years" and the one guy came out in red leather pants...hehehehe!! It was too funny. But again, it was a small intimate setting. Us girls got to go down to the stage, and be like 2 feet from them,(if that far) this after they walked around the audience, shaking hands and such. It was fun, and the music very powerful, I know~~;) it is funny to get excited about it. But what can I say, I am a romantic at heart.

Oh and kiddie news Amanda got her driver's permit...YIKES, LOL no she is loving it, and wants to drive all the dang time. hehehe.

Brandon is doing well, his birthday is next week, so we are gearing up for that. And we start our new play next week, so we will be busy again!
Hope all is going well with you guys, and I hope to hear from ya soon!!
Liz

We have a cast

2006-02-10T08:40:00.000-08:00

for Hansel and Gretel. And OMG was that hard. 50 children showed up and we only had 10 parts, with 2 of those parts being a shared part. It was/is very hard to pick just 10...sure wish I could have added extra people, but that always get way to confussing. Only problem we had was a lack of adults...but Joe has decided to take one of the adult men parts, so that means I will be "in charge" can I do this?? I sure hope so. Needless to say life is going to get crazy. But I am hoping in a good way.
Another bit of theatre news...Guess who may be nominated to be on the board of directors? Yep, you guessed it~~Me~~and it wasn't even Joey who nominated me....HHHMMMMM I don't know IF I will do it, it means more time away from home. But then again, the kids are getting so grown up already that I don't know it seems like it is time for me to find outside interests (still leaving time for them too) but you know what I mean. I don't want the empty nest syndrome....and I can't believe it is less than 2 years away that Amanda will prolly move out, to go to college. I think if I get more involved in other things when her time comes it may be a bit easier....anyhow I also need a special talent to be on the board....EEEERRRR I have no idea what that would be lol. but it should be interesting. right???

Anyhow work is work, I did get offered that 3rd position, but I am still bouncing back and forth on if I should take it. Ohhh, what to do??

Hope this finds you all well and happy!! ((((HUGS))))
Liz :)

Update~~

2006-01-28T05:02:00.000-08:00

Well I am still haning in here. Not much to post about lately, this is the reason I haven't posted. Today, I just wanted to say hello, and let ya all know things are doing pretty good around here. Busy, busy, busy. Got lots of hours at work last week, and next week headed for more, which is good, as I need the money. I got offered a 3rd position. What this means is I am a 3rd person in the classroom. Only problem is it is only 15 hrs a week, and I just can't swing that. Now I know I am not guarenteed any more than 7 a week where I am at, but most weeks I get way more than 15...and honestly I can't see myself locked in for that few of hours...(did that make sence??) It was very nice to be asked though.
Plays have been going on again, lol seems that is our life though. The kids got all involved in Narnia...with sunday being the last show...it has done well, and sold out most sunday's. Joe and I start production of Hansel and Gretel, Feb 4th is audtions....let's hope we can "work" together. LOL, we should be able to, although I don't know this is our "creative bugs" possibly clashing, again LOL, we will see. I am also thinking about having the board read 2 other plays I want to do for next year, more info later...if the board reads, and accepts them...they are VERY interesting IMO, and will be fun. (hopefully) :)
UUUMMM let's see, the kids are fine, tired mostly due from working on the plays ect....Amanda had a couple of issues for the last week or so, but we are working on it, as usual. Brandon is fine, quite but fine. The dang boy has grown so much, I am afraid I will never be able to feed him enough....LMAO typical boy child first thing he does when gets home is hang on the fridge door. it is funny. BTW he only has an inch or so till he is as tall as his dad, and all I can say is HA HA HA!! As they are both taller than me (by a long way) it is about time hubby looked one of them in the eye, or chest...hehehehehe!!!
Life here is pretty good, busy but good. Not sleeping very well AGAIN, but that is me I guess, so I am not going to worry about it!!
Hope things are going well with all of you!! If not you know where to find me!!!

(((HUGS)))
Liz

Meme~~I sure hope I did it right

2006-01-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

I was picked by Terri to do my own meme,
Here it is:

4 Jobs you have had:
Waitress @ Wells Creek Inn
Cashier @ 7-11
Instructional Assistant @ Sunny Hill School
Stay at home Mommy

4 Movies you could watch over and over:
Pretty Woman
Robin Hood Prince of Thieves
Steel Magnolias
Just Married

4 Places you have lived:
Pacific Grove CA
Portland OR
Coos Bay OR
North Bend OR

4 TV Shows you like to watch:
Friends
Trading Spaces
While you were out
VH1 Behind the music (do they do that show anymore?)

4 Places you have been on vacation:
Buffalo and Syracuse NY
Yosemite CA
Seward AK
Various places in OR (camping)

4 Websites you visit daily:
Def leppard official site
SOL (or whatever they call it now)
Flylady.com
Richard Simmons (no laughing he is inspirational)

4 of your favorite foods:
Cheesecake
BBQ Ribs
Hubby’s BBQ Chicken
Mexican

4 places you’d rather be:
The beach (with sunshine)
The lake (with sunshine)
With my family (if you knew how much they were gone anymore you would understand)
Visiting friends long distance (I learned a couple of years ago, that this is really fun!!!)

4 albums you can’t live without:
Def Leppards Slang
Def Leppards Adreanalized
Shania Twains Come on over
Cheryl Crow Greatest Hits

4 other things you can’t live without:
Coffee
Deodorant
Friendships
Love

4 People to pass this meme to:
Patty
Tig
Stacy
Stephanie

I too like Terri, wish you luck
Good luck!!

Just checkin in, new stuff ect....

2006-01-09T15:28:00.000-08:00

Well, new years came and went..LMAO we ended up going to a friends house, with the intent of drinking...G/F and I ran out of liquor AFTER we had started drinking...so no run to the store or my house where of course I had over half a bottle...course that was not what was suppose to happen, but I guess that is ok too. Had a very good time. With the extra bonus of no hang over the next day.

Resolutions, well I don't know IF I actually believe in them, but I do want to try and be more positive this year, not always so down in the dumps...I watched someone very close to me be that way at christmas, and something clicked, and I said "NO MORE" I mean if the very worst happens How do I want people to remember me... being a yucky down person...NOPE!! So I am trying. some days are better than others...lol. But for today I have a smile, and it has been there all day wooohoooo!!!

Anyhow been working everyday since I got back from Christmas break...good check coming up, which will be good seeing as I need to come up with the money for Joey's Valentine's Present....I will till ya ONLY if you don't laugh at me. You have to remember that we got together in 84 so as with every couple back then Air Supply was big(well maybe not every other couple)....well they are coming here, and I got tickets to go see them....now remember no laughing. I thought this was very romantic on my part seeing as we did all our firsts to that particular band: first dance, first errr ummm ;) LMAO ect.....and played them at our wedding...ok I know...but well ya know :)Hehehehe Anyhow it should be fun, or different anyways.

Well, not much else to tell ya. I hope all of you are well, and good. (((HUGS))))
Liz

Christmas.....

2005-12-29T19:12:00.000-08:00

Well, I am back. I came back to the phone being shut off...wooops. LOL, so I haven't been on for a couple days. But I went into work, and dang if they don't want me there almost all week...whew, gunna rest up this coming up weekend I tell ya.
The visit was great with my family...I loved seeing my dad, expecially when he was talking with my kids. Everyone in the family made it so this year was extra special. We the whole family went pretty light on presents, and ya know I think that was or is the better way to go. It was really more about just talking and laughing than what was under the tree. The weather was good too. Talk about God answering prayer...I get all weird when we travel. We had some heavy rain on the way back, and a couple of slick spots, but made it home tuesday night (we had so much fun we stayed an extra day hehehehe)
I got a new blanket for christmas, I swear my sister could go into business sewing, she is so crafty...it is very pretty with Leopards, and lep pring ribbon, best part is it is fleece, and just so comfy. And a couple of pairs of those fuzzy, warm socks, and a pair of slippers...one would think my mom and sister think I live in cold country...but that is ok, cause even though I don't, I do like the warm and fuzzy sutff. :)I got some other small stuff, all of it was great, and stuff I would have bought myself, except I am too cheap, so it is all good. :)
I missed you all and hope your holiday was great!!!
And ya know, I am looking forward to 2006, methinks it is gunna be a GREAT year!!!
(((HUGS))) to ya all!!!!
Liz

Christmas wishes

2005-12-23T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well guys, this is my official MERRY CHRISTMAS post. LOL, no I just want to wish ALL of you who come here a very merry christmas! I hope this holiday shows each and everyone of you the love and joy the season brings!

I want to add here, a quote from a christmas movie, which is becoming my all time favorite christmas movie. From It's a wonderful life. (BTW The first time I had watched this movie all the way through was last year, I highly recomend it) anyhow, on with the quote: 'A man is not a failure if he has friends.' Anyhow that is how I feel today. You all have been so great to me through the last year or so (some longer, some not, some bouncing back after an absence) well people I love you all & thanks :) (((((HUGS)))))

Birthdays down~~~

2005-12-19T08:25:00.000-08:00

Christmas to get ready for now...UUUGGGG. Today's weather in Portland is not so good, freezing rain. Alls I can say is it better be done before we hit the road friday. Anyhow Amanda is done with one of her plays, and it was good. Thank goodness, no more 2 practices a day...that was getting old real quick!!

Birthdays, were a success~~She loved all her gifts, and so did hubby. Her drama teacher added an extra cake to the house...can you say, "I will never fit into my jeans again!" Lord knows I love sweets, goodness, I am getting soo fat!! UUUGGGG

Oh well another year to peel off some weight. Anyhow I am feeling like Kevin Costner, in Field of Dreams here...If you post they will come, but then again maybe you all thought I gave up? Me~NEVER GIVE UP!!!! So ok will close for now, I need to get off here and call my mom, to see what is up for food for when we are there, and what I need to bring, ect..have a great day, and stay warm!!
(((HUGS))))

I finally got news~~~

2005-12-15T05:31:00.000-08:00

I know I haven't been posting in a long time...but really I didn't have much to say...cept complain, and really I am sure you all don't want to hear that...so I haven't been posting cause it just drags everyone down. But well, I just wanted you all to know, things are going pretty ok here.

Today is a very special day, 17 years ago, I became a mother....so please all stop by and wish my lovely daughter a happy day today.

AMANDA, have a great day!! :) (((HUGS)))

Other than that, things are good. She is in two plays (at the same time) needless to say, we (mostly Joe) is running around like a chicken with his head cut off...YIKES!!!

Work is...well work, but feeling pretty good about it. Getting hours finally. It is funny, cause sometimes I get like 6 or 7 days off in a row, then all the sudden I get like 4 calls for one day...geeze people, sycronize (sp??) LOL, but that is life I guess.

Well, I hope all the chirstmas shopping hasn't brought too much stress to anyone. I haven't even started, but I normally don't till after the birthdays....so this coming up weekend, should be when I go...either that or I will add extra stuff today. I am hoping to also get the stuff wrapped...YUCK!! LOL

Well, other than that...our trip is on. Please say a prayer that there will be no ice or snow...I know you all deal with snow on a normal winter...but I don't and it makes driving scary for us...please cross your fingers, as it is real important for us to go this year. My dad will be there the friday before christmas (the day we plan to leave) so we are hoping to get together and have a nice family dinner with him...seeing as I haven't seen him a quite a few years this will be special.

Well other than that I just wanted to drop in and say HI...wish you all the best, and send along my special wishes to each and everyone of ya!!
(((((HUGS))))) Liz

Wishing all you a happpy holiday~~

2005-11-23T05:00:00.000-08:00

Hey people, just wishing you all the best of holidays tomorrow!! You know you will be on my list of things (people) I am thankful for. Thanks for the friendship, and the laughter....it has saved me through the last year (or two)

Now no eating so much that you make yourself sick...just have a great day, with family or friends, or whatever it is you plan to do!!

Love and ((((HUGS)))) to all of you!!

Liz

Self-care and other things~~

2005-11-16T05:16:00.000-08:00

Well yesterday was payday...so I am now sporting a fresh professional manicure....went in and had my nails done was pretty nice.

But why is it when mom's do something for themselves that the guilt sets in? I mean hubby is set to take off on Thursday for a camping/hunting trip, and he acts like no biggie, but 1) I don't get 9 worry free days each year and every year. 2)If I do end up going out it seems like this big deal, and most of the time it is only for an evening...AFTER I have taken care of all the "stuff" HHMMMM I wonder is the guilt in my own head, OR does society make us mommy's feel bad if we want to do stuff for ourselves?? I don't know, but right now I am thinking I really NEED another trip, but can we afford it....NOPE and why is that? It sounds like I am mad here, but I am not I am just throwing thoughts out here, in case anyone wants to add something. I sound pretty selfish, but well ya know I guess I just want to have a little guilt, worry free days...is that too much?

Got the holidays coming up, and this year I have deicided to just "let them go" I will not be hosting christmas, and honestly this is fine. We will go to my mom's (wheather pending)I am going to relax and watch them work...LMAO like this NEVER happens. But really it is all good, I am tired of it being this "big deal" I don't HAVE to host it this year. But I do want next year...as it more than likely will be Amanda's last Christmas at home...so I got to gear up on the memories for her. :)

Back to work today after 6 days off...HMMMM I sure wish I was independantly weathy so I didn't have to work...LOL, what is it about time off that makes us or me lazy?? LOL, well all have a great day!! (((HUGS))) to each and everyone of ya!!!

Opinions please~~

2005-11-13T08:30:00.000-08:00

Hey guys I have ran into a situation that I would like some feedback so please feel free to give advice.

Ok for awhile we have been playing around with the idea of finding a new Theripist for Amanda (and someone that will look into the whole families needs) I feel the doc she has been seeing is not offering us the help we need as a family...somedays I feel as if this disorder is going to rip us apart. And I am VERY concerned about Brandon, and how he is "dealing" with this...which he isn't it is sorta like he thinks, 'Ok here she goes again, and alls we can do is listen.' I also am concerned that he is getting the message that she can do pretty much as she pleases cause we all know that she will rage if she doesn't get her way..what message does that send to him.

So anyhow we had gone into see a different Doc on Friday...and I can honestly say I didn't like him one little bit. The conversation we had was somthing like this:
'I don't know Liz, I am not discounting you present Doctor, but I wouldn't be so quick to think that she has Bi-polar. I am not saying that there isn't a problem, but well...I would think that more testing needs to be done. My practice is slowing down, and I well work mainly with adults. And well without other tests, I just wouldn't be so quick to think she is really bi-polar. And even if she is, just having her on wellbutrin is well not the best thing to do.'(I need to add here, that Lithium was mentioned and I WILL NOT put her on that at this point, I don't think it is necessary and the side effects of that would be harder for her to take than the dissorder that is one thing our present doctor understands) and 'I might be willing to have her tested more, and then let our social worker, work with you guys. My wife who is a nurse practitioner is also great...but then again I am bias. I don't want to just turn you away, but....' (he thing goes on to mention that for his wife's services insurance couldn't be billed) and he just sounded like a pompous ASS!! Like he was doing us a favor just by letting us sit in his damn office!!

Ok so that is pretty much it. I sat there thinking, how is it possible that a Doctor that helps families heal, can listen and see how my family is falling apart, and just be like, well I could help, but I don't want to. Or, I don't know he just pissed me off!!! I would think that IF you were paid to do that stuff that is what you would do. My choices are limited...cause of money, and insurance ect. So when you get a second opinion and you hate it...then what do you do? I actually liked the first opinion we got...it fit, but according to this guy we acted to fast? WTF? No I don't doubt she has it...but now I am like ok where do we go from here?? How much longer do I sit back and watch my daughter struggle with this crap not to mention what it is doing to the rest of us??

So there you have it my delema~~Any advice would be great guys!! (((HUGS)))Thanks for listening.

Now this is funny,

2005-11-10T14:45:00.000-08:00

or at least I thought so....I have a few days off (7 to be exact) not scheldulded to work, and feeling super lazy today, so I went over to KC's blog and saw this and thought what the heck, so here it is, laugh now, cause I sure thought it was funny!!

Your Birthdate: May 8

Watch out Donald Trump! You've got a head for business and money.You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet.A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job.Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss.
Your strength: Your undying determination
Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle
Your power color: Plum
Your power symbol: Dollar sign
Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Happy Halloween~~

2005-10-31T05:07:00.000-08:00

Hope every has a safe and happy evening this evening. I am not sure what my kids are planning to do. As IMO at 14 and 16 I think they are way to old to go trick or treating. Only party they had planned on was Amanda's ex/bf~~and well that is not going to happen as she is burning that bridge, I am glad she is, as it needs to end. But well she is kinda being a bit mean now.

Anyhow, we have been painting her room this last weekend, WHEW what a job it has been. Hubby's back is still not what it should be, so he is not helping (which is really ok cause I don't want him to hurt himself further) but DAUUUM, it is a big room, and alot of work...LOL. But her and I are getting it done. Tonight and tomorrow, we will be doing the trim, closet, and touch up stuff...and then get her bed back in there, along with her sterio, and hanging clothes.....her stuff is in my dinning room now, and man is there alot of it...hehehhehe looks pretty tacky in here. But her room is looking GREAT, a nice clean WHITE celing, and a powder blue on the walls....nice change from the greenish, blue stuff that was there.

After her room it will be on to the bathroom. I will wait till hubby's back is better before we start the kitchen (plan to do kitchen after bathroom) cause kitchen I will need help.

Anyways wish me luck today, I am kinda nervous to go into work today....but again I NEED TO STAND BEHIND THIS DECISION.....and I am gunna!!

All's good my friend, sure hope it is the same with you guys!! (((HUGS))))

Making things simple~~~

2005-10-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

Well, ok so another week...and not an easy one, but one that enabled me to action (finally)
First and foremost, I am getting Amanda into another doc...not that the one we are seeing is bad, but she hasn't offered any thearpy~~and it is needed!! Amanda will be seen first, then the rest of the family will go in seperately~~learn tools of how to deal with this. I am done sitting back and letting this happen to us. Also a change of meds (back to the first one that worked)

Second my job~~well after going in(tuesday) to find my shift given away, I have decided not to work in that particular class room anymore. I (again) am done, done with begging for hours, feeling inadaquate, not worthy...just plain done. (I know taken me long enough) now I just have to face the music of my decision, and not let anyone make me feel like less of a person for doing it. It is time I practice what I preach to my kids, we make decisions now it is time to stick by them.

I am also going to try and back away from my kids~~I know that sounds weird, what I mean is~~at 16 Amanda needs to make more of her own decisions. Time for me to legthen the apron strings (if you know what I mean) I need to let her decide where she is going and guide her not baby her, and make all the choices for her. And I mean ALL. I have been told by 2 different counselors that I am too close, and need to back off a bit...ok. And you know what, I have already done it. She had been deciding not to go to school, well I can't force her...so I left it up to her. She could go in and talk with her guidence counselor, and fix it~~and guess what she did!! :) All is well (of good) here my friends~~or soon to be getting better, I am making my life more simple!! And ya know what I can breath!! Finally!!
((((HUGS))))

And another funny~~~~

2005-10-21T18:15:00.000-07:00

I have a friend that I went to high-school with, and after we graduated she moved to California...I miss her lots, but she still keeps in touch with me mostly sending me funny jokes. So whenever she sends one, I pass it to you guys here, as I know we all can use more smiles in our lives. (((HUGS))) and chuckles
Liz
A Love Story
I SHALL SEEK AND FIND YOU..
I SHALL TAKE YOU TO BED AND HAVE MY WAY WITH YOU..
I WILL MAKE YOU ACHE, SHAKE AND SWEAT UNTIL YOU MOAN AND GROAN..
I WILL MAKE YOU BEG FOR MERCY AND BEG FOR ME TO STOP.
I WILL EXHAUST YOU TO THE POINT THAT YOU WILL BE RELIEVED WHEN I'M FINISHED WITH YOU.
AND YOU WILL BE WEAK FOR DAYS.
ALL MY LOVE.

THE FLU

Now, get your mind out of the gutter.... And get your flu shot!!!!!!

Well it has been almost a month~~~

2005-10-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

since my last post. I guess, I just sorta dropped out of the blog world...why you may (or maynot) be asking. Well my friends, I had noticed a trend with me, I had become this "Glass is empty" sorta person, who just complained all the time...so I said enough. I just didn't post anymore. I don't know, I guess it just got boring for me to just post problems ect...So I decided to just post happy stuff, well as you can see in my lack of posts that not much different has gone here, so that is part of why I left. But I felt the need to say hello to all of you, check in, tell ya that I am still living....
SDDS pretty much sums up things around here. We got a few new "issues" with amanda and let me tell you I will forever hate this dissorder, and what it does to the people who have it. Not to mention those who love them.
Brandon and Joe are in a new play, so yep that means I don't see them much, the last play was WONDERFUL!! I wish them the best of luck in this one, I do have my doubts as the story isn't a very happy one, but hey who knows it could sell out. :)
Work is about the same, still on call, and no new hires this year. But I really started to look at why I stay after I was told "all you do is complain about work and don't even try to find a new job" this from the 16 year old who knows what it is like to be in the working world don't ya know (hope you caught the sarcasm there) well yes that is true, ok here is the but.....
1) I won't find a job that pays as well here (with my lack of education, and or experience) I think I do pretty well for not going to college, ect.
2) I can't just take days off, when the kids need me (wheather they really do or not they sure call enough) with a different job, it will take a long time before things ever get that comfy, if ever.
3) Even if I am not 100% happy there, I ask myself, will I be 100% anywhere, you know the kettle into the fire kinda thing??
So for now things are where they are. I can always be a vulture and hope that someone gets fired...LOL, no I hate doing that. But I have decided that no more complaints about it, unless I am willing to change it. Quite a few years back I took a course in job skills, and realized that unless I am willing to change things, I can't complain. Can I??
Well that about sums it up, I hope all is well with you guys. Keep in touch.
((((HUGS))) to all!!
Liz

And another joke~~

2005-09-21T18:28:00.000-07:00

But WARNING it is kinda diry but here ya go.....

Larry gets home late one night and his wife, Linda, says "Where in the hell have you been?"He replies, "I was out getting a tattoo.""A tattoo?" she frowned. "What kind of tattoo did you get?""I got a hundred dollar bill on my penis," he said proudly."What the hell were you thinking?" she said, shaking her head in disbelief. "Why on earth would an accountant get a hundred dollar bill tattooed on his penis?""Well, one, I like to watch my money grow. Two, once in a while I like to play with my money. Three, I like how money feels in my hand. And lastly, instead of you going out shopping, you can stay right here at home and blow a hundred bucks anytime you want!"

Special thanks, and busy weekend~~~

2005-09-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

So saturday was super busy for us, the fun festival on saturday, you know a gathering of the towns people with a parade, and food, arts, crafts booths, bands playing ect...was pretty fun. Topped the night off with cruze the Coos. People get their old cars out you know the nice ones that sit in garage all year, they cruze a loop and get judged on best, ect....Both my kids were in the parade, with Amanda's last appearance as her princess thing. And Brandon to ride the high school float, LOL. So we get home pretty late, didn't even remember to check the mail so Amanda goes out Sunday morning, and what is in my little mail box....A card from my good budy Terri, Thanks my friend that was very nice. I gotta say though did you forget how to spell Oregon, LMAO don't sound it out my friend, will confusse you everytime!! Hehehehe Thanks again sweetie you made my day. Well I hope everyone had a good weekend! :)
((((HUGS))))
Liz

And now a Funny~~~

2005-09-13T19:01:00.000-07:00

I thought I would share this with you all seeing as I have been such a downer lately so enjoy I sure did~~~~~

Subject: Why?
1. WHY DO MEN BECOME SMARTER DURING SEX? Because they are plugged into a genius
2. WHY DON'T WOMEN BLINK DURING SEX? They don't have enough time
3. WHY DOES IT TAKE 1 MILLION SPERM TO FERTILIZE ONE EGG? They don't stop to ask directions
4. WHY DO MEN SNORE WHEN THEY LIE ON THEIR BACKS? Because their balls fall over their butt-hole and they vapor lock (You're laughing, aren't you?!?!)
5. WHY WERE MEN GIVEN LARGER BRAINS THAN DOGS? So they won't hump women's legs at cocktails parties
6. WHY DID GOD MAKE MEN BEFORE WOMEN? You need a rough draft before you make a final copy
7. HOW MANY MEN DOES IT TAKE TO PUT A TOILET SEAT DOWN? Don't know.....it's never happened (C'mon guys, we laugh at your blonde jokes!) And my personal favorite:
8. WHY DID GOD PUT MEN ON EARTH? Because a vibrator can't mow the lawn

This is what I think~~

2005-09-13T04:35:00.000-07:00

Life is funny ya know. Kiddies are doing very well. Brandon loves High-school, and even Amanda seems to be doing well, course that could have something to do with the fact that her and boyfriend got back together...sigh, I know I keep telling her to forget the guys and just be....HERSELF...but does she listen to me, HHMMM I wonder if the reverse physcology would work at this point...EERRR I really don't think so. LOL

I need to get up and move, I think that has become one of my major problems. Since my friend died, I have gone through ALOT of books. Now I am not talking 100 or so page books. I have gotten into a real marathon of reading here lately~~could it be I am trying to escape....EEERRR YEP!! I have gone through about 6 book each with 300-600 pages, WOW just seeing that makes me pause.(I am talking about 6-8 books here) And tell myself OK, Liz get off your hiney and MOVE!!

Why is it in life that when we do something that makes us feel better about ourselves, we choose not to do it? I know if I take my vitimins, drink my water, and try and find some time to exercize I feel better, but why is it I can talk myself into not doing or "forgetting" to do these things? It is like self sabatoge?? HHMMM I wonder WTF is up with that, do I like feeling like a giant slug?? No not really but why am I willing to let myself fall into this "trap" HHHMMM I guess when I figure that one out, I can sell that info and become super famous. LOL.

Work issues are just "issues" LMAO seems every damn time I am gunna head out of there, something happens. Again WTF is up with that? LMAO now of course I am schelduled for tons of hours, siiiigh. So of course no time in the day to go job hunting. *rolley eyed dude here* I can't just quit as I need to money (even as slim as it gets sometimes) to make it through till I get something more stable. So back on the hamster wheel.

I have been kinda funky (lmao as if you couldn't tell) this last couple of weeks, trying to "pin" my life down, asking myself: "At 38...is this it?" I know those kind of thoughts only lead to bad feelings, but for some odd reason, I am not real happy about things in my life. I don't know why, cept maybe fall time is like this for me....seems every year bout this time things start going to shit...why?? Haven't the foggiest, alls I know is I keep asking myself the same old things. Could possible have something to do with the fact that in about 5 years my "nest" will or should be pretty close to empty. Then what?? HHHHMMMM.

Or lord I know not to go on about this, as I get nowhere, but somedays the thoughts keep cranking in my little head....Oh well guess to muddle through it.

Whew, ok done with those depressing thoughts, ya know I really only put it in here to get it out of my system so thanks for reading....if ya do. And if ya feel a comment coming on that is ok too.
Well in closing, I want to give all of ya a special ((((HUG)))) and thanks for putting up with me. Love to ya all!!
Liz

AAAHHHH the sounds of fall~~

2005-09-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

What is that that I hear? Nothing, HHHMMMM oh yes the kiddies are at school and the house grows very quite, is this a good thing? Well sure it is a good thing.

Brandon loves the highschool so far so good for him!! He seems to be easing his way in, and I see him smile ALOT more. Which if you all knew him you would see what a wonderful thing that is. I still look at him, and wonder where the time has gone. LOL, being sappy here again but daum his certainly has grown. Terri, IF you decide to still come you won't believe how big and grown up he is looking. :)

As for Amanda, well ya know it is always a guess with her, one day may be great and the poof. Or rather the morning she leaves in a great mood, and by the end of the afternoon, well she is not doing so well. Seems her and ex are now "friends" I know she wants to get back together with him, and that is her goal for now, but well whatever the case, I hope he doesn't "break her heart" again. SIIIIGH. I sure hope it gets easier for her.

I have been working again....don't know IF that is a good thing or not. LOL, got new kids, and when I say "new" I mean "new"...lord it is tough. I hadn't realized how tough it was to have an almost brand new class. But then again it is fun. So I am still on the fence, and with little time to look into anything else. But I did learn that there will be no hiring this year.....so here I sit again, ok gals someone please kick me up the backside and get me motivated. LMAO, one day I will figure it all out.

Well other than that nothing new here....which is good. Kids are going to the football game tonight, so I will have the house to myself...HHHMMM I have been doing that for a long time now, don't know if I like that or not. Well gals, have a great day, and or weekend if I don't hear from ya. ((((HUGS))) and love to ya all!!
Liz :)

Been gone for a bit, but things are well~~

2005-08-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

And a special thanks to each and everyone of you who put in a wish or prayer for me, and my friends mom!! (((HUGS)))) to ya guys, gosh what would I do without ya? Let's hope never to find out!!

Went school clothes shopping today, gosh it is hard to shop for and with boys.....I love my son AKA Stick-boy, but geeeez is he ever a grouch when shopping. GGGRRR, but we did find him clothes. I would seriously like to know when this baggy-ass pants look is gunna EVER be over with?? any ideas, cause I swear I am sick of seeing my sons boxers, I mean really I had to see that kind of stuff when he was little, I sure don't want to see it now. (Ok sorry little rant there lol)

Amanda did well, course I always have an easier time of it with her, ya know she is so itty bitty that everything looks good on her. LOL, I would hate her if she weren't my daughter. I swear. So tomorrow is registration for them. This will be good I think to get them back in school. OOOHHH we got good news today, Amanda did make it to her Junior year, and yes we were sweating it. So YIIIIPPEEEE for her.

So alls we need is a quick stop at wally-world for socks, undies, and school supplies, and we will be done.

This coming up weekend my mom comes in for another visit, this time to see Brandon's play, and btw that is going sooo well!! :) Although watching a play about "true friendship" may be hard, but oh well, guess I will just have to take some tissue huh?

Will be great to see mom, although I am sure we will have to hash things out about my friend, and now my sister and I are sorta fighting, (rolley eyed dude here) guess things never change huh? LOL. We will get over it I am sure.

Other than that I am doing pretty well, had ALOT of headaches this last week, don't now maybe I am reading (escaping) too much course without my glasses. Or it is stress who the hell knows right?

Well take it easy guys, and ((((HUGS)))) to ya!!
Liz

Gettin' on with it~~

2005-08-20T21:30:00.000-07:00

Well, thanks to good friends, and family I am feeling better about my situation. Today, I went to see my friend's mom, and she is doing alot better than I thought, so I am relieved about that. :) I love that lady like another mother. My friend wouldn't want me to be wallowing in it, so as of tonight I have decided that it is ok to feel bad, but not ok not to live. I know now that she always loved me, and knew that I loved her. I can't take responsibility for the bad choices she made. I can't save the world...only my small little world here can I change or affect, and I am no good if I am wallowing in self pitty. so with a new resolve to "get on with it" I will be getting up, dressed, and no more sleeping just cause. Depression will not solve anything or bring my friend back. Know my friends that I am here if you ever need anything, and that I love each and everyone of you. If I didn't learn anything in the last 3 days it is this: I need to say I love you more often, and I need to listen more often, and just be happy more often. Thanks again for listening to my muddled thoughts, I promise they will get better.
:) <~~~See a smile for each and everyone of you!!
Liz

And now a dose of reality~~~

2005-08-18T18:19:00.000-07:00

came crashing into my life this morning at about 10am...I learned that my childhood friend has died. I met this woman when I was six and her and I were inseperable from then until I moved to our neighboring town my sophmore year in highschool. We grew up together, her mom is like my second mother, most weekends I spent at their house. After I moved away her and I didn't see each other much, and pretty soon after that she started a downward sprial into drugs. SIIIIGH, what a fucking waste!!! We had the oportunity to speak occasionally as adults, but not enough. Right now I am feeling so weird, I mean I guess I never thought. I guess I just live in my own little insulated bubble ya know? I just can't believe I will never get the chance to tell her how important she was to me, how much she brought to my life. Ya know? I am so tired of everything being so dang sad all the time, seems like everytime I turn around something else hits....Lord growing up gets pretty damn tough sometime. But then again I guess no one said it was going to be easy huh?

If I sound funky sorry, but I am writting this to get it out, this is my therapy. I have never delt with death, this close before...sure I had grand parents pass away, but never anyone so close to me. Not to mention her age. I know some out there may think she deserved it, but I tell ya I can't for the life of me understand why she did this to herself, I just don't get it, as kids she seemed to have alot...and then all the sudden she was drawn into this really dark ugly place....it always seemed that she was running from some demond, and you know today I thought well honey if you are running at least maybe now you can be free of the pain that hurt you so deeply that you could never love yourself. Cause I honestly think all she was ever looking for was love, and you know as her best friend why couldn't I stop her??? Well I guess those are usless questions, questions only her and God know.

SIIIIGH, Thanks for listening, and yes I will be ok, I don't have any other way to be. I do ask prayers for her mother though. She is a wonderful lady who this will hurt deeply. thanks in advance. Hey did I tell ya I love ya all!!!! ((((HUGS)))))

What is new new in my world~~

2005-08-18T07:39:00.000-07:00

Well let's see now, HHHMMM well basically it is SDDS around here. Work is well work and not much is changing there, although I did go in for a meeting last week. It didn't go well....but I think I got my point across, then again maybe not. Ok, so I tell them, ya know as of Sept. IF I am not hired on permanantly I will not be working on call, period, so yesterday a Teacher askes if I can work in Oct. LMAO well that just shows how well I am listened to. Seriously although I don't have a plan yet, I will not do this for another year and watch my bills continue to stack up...even IF I have to take a pay cut maybe I can at least work with something regular. And no I really don't have a plan yet...I just know that I am leaving if something doesn't come up in "the great shuffle" I know you all have heard this before, but I guess the more I say it, it should come true..right?

Joe is doing very good, his play has sold out twice, now this is just the start of the 3rd week, and to have it already sold out in the first two weeks is almost unheard of.....Pat Joey on the back cause all of his hard work paid off...and truth be told it is a GREAT play, and no it is not just cause he is one of the directors honest it is wonderful.

Now it is on to the next play~~Ok so Brandon wanted to Assistant Direct, and well someone on the board had a problem with his age or rather someone his age being an Assistant Director. HHMMM this person doesn't EVEN know my son, I was a bit irked but then again knowing the director, it would have been hard for him. So Joe said he would Assistant Direct and Brandon can be "Assistant Director in training" the play (now hold on here I think it is not a play I would do, but it passed the vote) The Elephant Man...ok again whatever, I wouldn't have done it. But Brandon wanted to do this...so yep that is right they are Back in the saddle again, with this one coming out in October...HHHMMMM I have no idea how this one will fly. But, then again who knows right? LOL I was asked to be in it...but I passed, it seems that I have been doing something with a play for a loooong time, and I am tired. I did tell the director that "IF" I get bored I will do make up or something like that...but I really doubt it, I kinda want a life outside the theatre.

Now news about Amanda, well she is doing pretty good. At least I think so. Her boyfriend of 11 months broke up with her. And well, I thought it was gunna be "bigger" to her. She seems fine, although I bit confussed about it all. OHHHH to be 16 again. God I would hate that. You know the feeling of confussion about life, love and all that. Poor thing she just wants someone to be with. I don't know it is hard for me to counsel her on this as I found my "soul-mate" at her age and no matter what I say, I think deep down she thinks it will happen for her early in life, I don't really want it to....cause I want her to live a bit more than I did. or rather ALOT more than I did. But I think she is a romantic, siiiiiigh. Again I say I woudn't change places with her for anything. I couldn't take it. You know the self doubt, and all that teens live with. Anyhow I think she is going to be fine, and I sure hope this gives her the opportunity to be "Just Amanda" you know find herself, not herself connected to a guy...cross fingers guys please. I want her to be happy but I don't want that happiness to depend on a guy...as it seems to be that way for her. Oh well we will weather this storm too. School starts pretty soon, and I hope it is a GREAT year for them...hey did I tell ya I now have to High-schoolers, lord that makes me feel OLD!! LOL.

Well gals that is about it in my corner, hope all of you have a great day!!! ((((HUGS))))
Liz

So I got a question~~~

2005-08-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

Does anyone know what this Hi5 thingy is, and how it works. Is this what people are doing instead of blogs, and or message boards?? Ok that is more than one question, but some help, or information would be nice. Anyone?

Other than that things are going pretty well here, I have been home all week, and well ya know it is pretty good that is until I see this paycheck...:) Anyhow I hope all is going well with you guys, and I hope to get together and talk with at least one of ya pretty soon. I am about ready to give up on the internet thing here. :(
((((HUGS)))) to all!
Liz

All is well here~~

2005-08-06T08:38:00.000-07:00

Well Charlotte's Web opened last night, and the boys came home last night and said it went very well!! I went to dress rehearsal at this particular theartre they offer a "free to the public" dress rehearsal, and it was VERY GOOD!! Joey was just beaming all that work has paid off. :) Congrats to that hubby of mine!! Now maybe we can relax and have a life. Ya think?? hehehe.

Amanda's b/f came back after vacation, and she is happy. She is planning on going over to see him today.

As for me, I have just come off of working a full week, wow. I still can't get used to it....as now I am not schelduled till friday. so of course I will get all relaxed and then go back in a major way. Although I have come to the conclusion that IF I don't get something full time/permanent in September when the "suffle" goes on, I will have to leave...I can't do this anymore. Not only financially is it killing us, but physically I can't get used to working then not...ya know my body has no idea what hours I am gunna put in. I will be sad to see it go....but hey did I mention the school that is right up by my house (about a 1/2 mile up the road) is suppose to be opening up into a pre-school/daycare/after school program.....WOOOOOHOOOOO I think I will apply there and see what happens. That my friends would be soooo cool. Funny thing is when I first went back to work after my children were born, I started at that school, so I personally think that would be way cool. So we will just have to wait and see. You know how good I am on patience....LMAO!

Well the sunburn has now turned to MAJOR peeling, I swear it is so gross, LOL....but lesson well learned USE SUNSCREEN about...ohhhh 50 times a day right? God I itch so bad!!

Well, I guess that is about it for me today...I hope you all had a nice week, and have a great weekend as well!!!!

((((HUGS)))
Liz

Back from our little excursion~~~

2005-08-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

AAAHHHH, nice to be home...with elecrical stuff. Ya know I love camping, but I do miss "normal" coffee, baths, TV, and yes MY COMPUTER!! HEHEHEHE.

We had a great time, I am crisp though, HHHMMMM word of advice, don't get the spray sunblock, I got it...and I think someone sprayed my back early on in the day but it is still crisp no more like charred, can't wear a bra...now aint that gunna be pretty at work(for those of you who don't know me, or haven't seen me I am one of "the bigger gals who can't go braless"I wonder what comments 3-5 year olds are gunna come up with if Teacher Liz goes free and easy LMAO this should be good. I know for a fact my eerrr front was sprayed at least 3-4 times with the stuff, but nope "the girls" are still rather red. But nothing compaired to my back, OUCH is all I can say!!! But even after that we still had a good time. I love camping, one gets to eat, rest, go swimming, and guess what sleep/rest more!!! Only to wake up and figure out what to eat again!!! HEHEHEHE my kind of life. :)

Brandon was quite the fisherman, catching 5 nice sized rainbow trout, that he and Joe gets to eat. Cause I don't eat the stuff. But they sure like it. And good for them :) Sitting round the campfire is nice too, for some reason staring at one object (the fire) is relaxing, and very soothing...ooohhhh until the wind changes and your eyes water, and you are engulfed in smoke....hehehe cough, sputter. LOL, but I do still like it, kinda a race to see if you can hold your breath longer than the wind can shift again. Nothing smells better than being all smoked. heheheh even after a shower, you still smell like the fire. I am rambling, sorry. I didn't do much camping as a kid, matter of fact, I think we had one trip. But Joe and I have always gone camping through out our years together. We now cheat and sleep in a camper, it is pretty old, but it works better than the ground. We used to tent it when we were ALOT younger and our back could handle it better. LOL, now we cheat, but still get the experience. OHHH and why does breakfast ALWAYS taste better when one is camping? I have no idea but I did an egg scramble, that was wonderful!! YUMMMMMY!!! Must be the fresh air. HUH?

Anyhow, I don't know IF I posted about that other job I looked into last week, but I think NO. I am a teacher not a babysitter, and it just seemed to me that that was one big babysitting thing, just in a different building. So I really need to be polite and call her and say thanks, but no thanks.

Joe starts tech week, also known in theatre as "hell week" the last week before preformance. And it get really no REALLY tense. Cross fingers for him that all works well. And he is coming down with a cold...poor guy. I hope he can make it through without getting really sick. I guess I will just have to take extra good care of him.

Well guys I hope the weekend went well for all of you~~hope to see ya round!!
Love and ((((HUGS)))
Liz

Headin' out~~~

2005-07-28T08:03:00.000-07:00

So today we are headin' out on our first camping trip of the year. Kinda late for us, but we haven't had much time this summer due to the plays...this is the first weekend we haven't had something going on..either a play or the July Jubliee thing. And next weekend Joe and Brandon's play opens so there goes 4 more weeks that we won't be able to camp or anything....HHHMMMM wonder if we should be rethinking this theatre thing. LOL, no it's ok, we just have to not do play after play after play. Ya think? :)

Anyhow, you all have a great weekend, and I will be back sunday sometime...hopefully not to sunburned, and a LOT more relaxed!! AAAAHHHH there is something about camping and not having a scheldule that just makes me feel so good!! So anyhow, as I am eating S'mores I will be thinking of ya!! :) ((((hugs)))))

Will this let me post something now??

2005-07-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

I haven't been able to post on this since I got my internet back...just wondering if this still works?? HHHMMMM It looks like it.

SOOOOO let me see, what has been new? Well, lots of stuff really. Got my play done, was ok We didn't get to many people in our audiences most nights so that was kinda a bummer, but it is done. And I did manage to learn my lines in 3 weeks, I was pretty proud of myself!!

UMM I am still working on call~~I went into that employment place, and of course they couldn't really help me cept to tell me that I can look for another job, they offer classes, and stuff but that is only IF I am willing to hit the pavement. For right now I am going to stay, as August/September is kind of a shifting time period, and IF there is going to be new positions that is when they will happen. On monday I went into another day-care center here in town, to sorta apply for a position...and well I don't know I guess I am spoiled but it just didn't feel right, so now I have to call her and say thanks but no thanks...HHHMMMMM it was just weird, and I don't think it would work for me. I mean she couldn't really guarentee me anymore hours than I get now, and I would have to take a pay cut $2.00 an hour and well I am just not willing to do that. So please cross your fingers that someone will leave to get shifted to another place, cause my friends I can't do this on call thing much longer, I got bills to pay ya know!!

The kiddies are doing pretty good, they got the summertime "I am bored" syndrome....it is funny all school year long they want out and then when they get out they are bored...go figure huh?

Amanda's princess thing went pretty well, it was an expierience for her. Cept the social BS it was great. It is kinda hard dealing with popularly contests, and of course that is what it was. But I am proud of her for doing it!!

My family came down to see her parade, and that was pretty cool. They are talking about coming again in about 3 weeks or so to see Brandon's and Joe's play~~OMG they are hot and heavy into Charlotte's Web, and my poor hubby is so tired. We seriously need a break from all this theatre stuff, expecially Joe. Hopefully this weekend, as we head out on a camping trip Joe will get to relax, cause he so needs it.

Well girls I have missed you guys, I sure hope this finds everyone well and happy!! Until next time ((((HUGS)))))

Wonder if this works yet???

2005-07-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

The apple (or the nut) doesn't fall for from the tree.....

2005-06-05T08:12:00.000-07:00

So last night was Brandon's big celebration....we had a great time. More important SO DID HE!! We walk into the dance and there he is, rockin out....hehehehe He even told us he had started one of the 4 moshes going on there...LMAO he is so funny. Only bad thing is he looked way to old all dressed up, compleate with a tie....all in black, what was the song: "Every girl's crazy bout a sharp dressed man." Well, I am going to be in soooo much trouble with this child. LOL, sorry a bit of materinal pride there. I don't know, every so often I look at my kids and think: How did I do that?!? they are so beautiful (on the inside too) brings me smiles!!

So while the kids were off at their party, we went to our casino, and our friend won 1,100 COOL HUH? Sure wish it could have been us, but at least someone on out party won big!! Woooohoooo!! Dinner was great last night, our one and only italian place, and of course it was great....and no I didn't count calories. LOL

So then after the dance, the boys were flying...you know adreanalian so we said they could come over to our house after...I swear they stayed up almost all night, I have no idea what time I drifted off, but I swear I could still here them talking and laughing....they are worse than girls...LOL

Oh yeah I made my decision about the play: I am going to do "We the People" and then just be part of the Stage Crew for Charlottes Web....I really wanted to do an adult play so that is why I choose it. yesterday I went in for practice, and of course we were working on the music.....I am like, EERRR OK, this is gunna be REAL fun...LOL, boy will I have to "really act" to pretend I am comfortable with singing....ok can I ask WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!! LOL, no really I think if I just relax and have fun it will work...so hey wish me luck, or break a leg, or whatever....Tal, Patty thanks for your imput....you guys are sooo cool!!

Ok folks that's all, or I guess that should read: "That's all folks" HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!

What to do??

2005-06-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

Well last night I was at play practice for Charlotte's Web, I am sitting there minding my own business, when one of the other directors walks out and sing songs~~"Ohhh Liz, can I talk with you?" I am like "Ok, am I in trouble?" So out he comes with it, he asked me if I would be willing to be in their play that opens in 3 weeks, a musical....EEERRRR UUMMMM I DON'T SING! Period (as Terri knows, I have a terrible voice, and am very no VERY Self concious about it!!) But I don't have to really sing, well in the chorus I do..but that is with other people. YIKES, can I learn these lines too, as this is a real cute play...and a great point about it: It is not a childrens production, so I would be working with adults, seasoned ones at that.

There is also a part in it for Amanda~~which she has now decided to give up choir too...which makes outside interest to equal 1~~Her boyfriend, not good I know.....so I am hoping she will be able to swing this. I am thinking If she does it I will to.

Now I have two options here 1) I can do both plays, YIKES learning 2 different sets of lines, or 2) Do just either one. HHHMMMM Ohhh what to do?? What ya think guys??

Tuesday~~Wow

2005-05-31T04:11:00.000-07:00

Where the heck did May go? I tell ya this last month flew by!! I can't believe June is so fast approching, and summertime is just around the corner. let's see, this last weekend, I got the house cleaned up only to wake up this morning, and it is trashed again. Yikes, I live with major slobs I tell ya!! LOL, So today I will straighten it up again, do laundry, and oh yeah, it is Brandon's shopping day. I hope we can get by without spending all my paycheck. I also have to make a hair appointment for Amanda. Well shoot guess I will be broke before the day even starts. LOL

Let's see, thursday kicked off the weekend, with all of us going to see Star Wars III, (compleate with the kid's boyfriend/girlfriend....the out to dinner. OMG, I had to have the LARGE popcorn, and was sick all day friday from it...I tell ya my friends my body can't handle that kind of food anymore. Which if you think about it, is a good thing. (I GUESS??) Then Friday, my son had a friend over to spend the night, and Saturday, Amanda had her first parade to go to...yep she did the princess wave very nice :) And then after son's friend, and Amanda's boyfriend stayed over and played on the x-box most of the day....Paul stayed for dinner. I don't think he knows what to think of us. LOL, oh well keep him guessing is prolly the best way right? ;) Then we went out to dinner with our friends....and had a great time. Brandon asked to spend the night at their house...and I let him, which of course put Amanda in a major pout....she had asked to go to a "bonfire" kinda party....of course I said NO....which is a rule in out house, no adult supervision and you can't go....so well I paid for that little 2-letter word, up until Suncay night....geeeze can she pout!!! And I gotta say, I just LOVE it when they keep score~~~NOT!! man oh man I hate that!! So even after all the stuff we did with her, she still wasn't happy, gosh I just love teens! Well my mom used to say "you can get glad in the same clothes you got mad in!" I now know what the saying mean~~although to this day I still think it is a stupid saying...but pretty dang effective, course I didn't use it, I never would LOL. Got my car cleaned out, woooohooo, now that was a chore I tell ya, compleate with amor all, and windows being cleaned, and the whole thing vaccuumed out. So all in all I spent a pretty good weekend. Now today, to got to run around the kids, pay some bills Yuck, and try and see if I will have any money left to buy some groceries...so hey wish me luck!! and have a great day everyone!!! :) ((((((HUGS))))) to all ya!!

Todays is my Friday~~~

2005-05-26T05:40:00.000-07:00

Wooooohoooo! Lovin' a 4 day weekend!!! Me and the kids will prolly go to one of the lakes around here, prolly on monday, or hell maybe on sunday...better yet maybe both days!! LOL, It has been pretty warm here, yesterday was just beautiful!! I am so glad as I love the sun, and get pretty tired of the wet rain yucky weather!! So bring on the sun. My flowers look pretty great!! The all look like they survived the transplant. And are all looking pretty chipper!!

Today is the day I get to go in for my appointment about finding a new job. We have a place here, who offers training, and such...I don't know IF it will work, and if so how long I have to go without pay...part of the pay is the training. This week so far I have worked, 19 hrs. and that just isn't doing it. It has been a year since I had to give up my full time position, and well I am just waiting to get some of our bills paid off, and I can't do that IF I gotta buy the groceries (and little extras) It just isn't working anymore. Not to mention that workig on call stinks cause I can't really plan anything. IF I do plan then I have to cancel. ect.

This weeks extra thing, is Brandon's graduation outfit and dinner. When Amanda "graduated" to high school, we had a nice dinner, and I bought her a dress and some pretty nice jewlry, so I need to do the same for our son. OMG next year I will have 2 (yes that is 2 in high school!!) YIKES!!!! LOL, oh well. guess I better get used to it!!! We have an Itialian place here that he has wanted to go to for years, so that is where we are going. Good thing is we will go, bad thing his best friend "doesn't like itialian" so we won't be having dinner with them.Drats!! But hopefully it will still turn out nice. OMG we were talking about what kind of outfit he wanted, and I said..."Ok the pants CAN'T I repeat CAN'T show your underwear" He said, Duuh mom LMAO and he also wants to wear a tie...we will see how long that lasts. So I have to get him EVERYTHING, even new socks and shoes...as he sneakers won't work well with dress pants, shirt, and a tie!! LOL. he should be looking pretty spiffy huh? He is doing pretty well. My son...my pride and joy. He is trying to find work in any way shape or form. Which is good. Bad cause he "all about the money" but good that he is trying to "help us out" He is looking foward to summer break, as is our daughter!! She has big plans, for summer and I sure hope they turn out better than last summer.

Well I guess that is it for today, please cross everything ya got that something turns up for this job thing, I just can't take the finincial squeeze anymore. Not to mention my scheldule being out of wack!! I sure hope I can find something that will work, who knows after working with kids for the last 10 years maybe just maybe it is time for me to get out of it!! I kinda hope so!!

Well all I hope you have a safe and happy weekend!! (((HUGS))))

Mondays again~~

2005-05-23T04:36:00.000-07:00

So today is Monday and it is back to the work week. I work 9:45 to 6:15 today (not really my favorite shift) but hey it is hours. Then it is off to our first rehearsal...did I tell you that I did get a part as Mrs. Arable, Fern's Mother. It is not a big part, but a part none the less. I really wanted the part of Charlotte, but I wasn't EVEN in the running....HHHMMMPPPP ya would think that cause I sleep with one of the directors that, well...LMAO ok so he is a fair guy. Sheeese, I married a fair one...siiiiigh. No it is all good, well until we get going to hell week. My very good friend is making the costumes so I will also be helping in that area. Or at least the bargain was...'If you help, you won't look frumpy' LOL, good bribe huh?

I finally got to my flower boxes yesterday, and my pansy bed look GREAT!! I so love pansy's. I plant them in remembrance of my Grandmother as she had tons in her garden, and I can remember as a kid picking them. She would get all excited, and oohhhh and ahhh over them, then place them in "floating bowl" special for Pansy's. And funny thing is these things take off for me. I can grow them well. And the are just so damn perky that I really do love them. I also got my Gladiolia bulbs in (or should say Amanda got them in for me) it will be fun to wait for those sprouts. This year I decided to plant my petunias in pots as last years ones were HUGE...and took over the whole garden. I think this year I am going for a less crowded look. I always plant waaay to much and then the whole thing comes out looking on the wild side. Hubby and boy child have been working their hinys off digging. I now have a "hidden" garden space. They are making a walkway (of sorts) down the "valley" to a stream with spaces for more flowers. One of them I am going to turn into a rose garden. I have roses out front, but I didn't get the kind I like. I prefere the kind that gives off a single bloom (that can be cut to put in vases) instead I got the "cluster" kind. With the exception of my red rose, and a yellow one. And let me tell ya I got TONS of blooms already this year. I also got a plant called a "Stock" never heard of it.....but it smelled so pretty and was quite perky. So I got a couple in a real pretty peach color, and a couple in purple, and a white one. I hope those grow well for me. I also bought Cosmos seeds, and have no idea where to put those...HHHMMMMM. LOL, there are just to many kinds of plants I truly love. Oh gosh I have a feeling it will be all wild looking again....siiigh. So after spending most of the afternoon working out that I am a little more suntanned, and sore...LOL, my legs were a bit sore this morning....but that is a good thing.

Well not much else to add here....I will let ya go. And I hope each and every one of you have a great Monday!!!! ((((HUGS)))) :)

Funny and other stuff~~

2005-05-20T04:32:00.000-07:00

Well ok the other stuff first. I forgot to tell ya, I got my hair cut...I am now sporting a real (and I mean real) short style...Kinda on the spiky side, I love it, it is sporty and fun. And only takes about 2 minutes to fix in the mornings. I have had lots of nice compliments on it. Which is a good thing as I wasn't quite to sure about it.

Went into work yesterday, and after getting the cold shoulder for months, everyone was really nice to me, chatted up a storm...isn't that funny being as yesterday I FINALLY made an appointment over at a Business Coperation. It is a place that does jobtraining, and career counselling....HMMMM. But seriously I am going to go and talk with these people, see what can come of it. At this point I don't think it can hurt. I swear for me this is the year of "Either quit complaining about it or change it!"

Ok so now on to the funny, someone printed this off and handed it to me at work, and then I got it in my email so ya know I thought I would share here ya go enjoy:

Most of you have read the scare-mail about the person whose kidneys were stolen while he was passed out. Well, read on. While the kidney story was an urban legend, this one is not. It's happening every day.
My thighs were stolen from me during the night a few years ago. It was just that quick. I went to sleep in my body and woke up with someone else's thighs. The new ones had the texture of cooked oatmeal. Who would have done such a cruel thing to legs that had been mine for years? Whose thighs were these and what happened to mine?
I spent the entire summer looking for my thighs. Finally, hurt and angry, I resigned myself to living out my life in jeans and Sheer Energy pantyhose.
Then, just when my guard was down, the thieves struck again. My butt was next. I knew it was the same gang, because they took pains to match my new rear end (although badly attached at least three inches lower than my original) to the thighs they stuck me with earlier. Now, my rear complemented my legs, lump for lump. Frantic, I prayed that long skirts would stay in fashion.
It was two years ago when I realized my arms had been switched. One morning I was fixing my hair and I watched horrified but fascinated as the flesh of my upper arms swung to and fro with the motion of the hairbrush. This was really getting scary. My body was being replaced one section at a time. How clever and fiendish.
Age? Age had nothing to do with it. Age is supposed to creep up, unnoticed,
something like maturity. NO, I was being attacked repeatedly and without warning.
In despair, I gave up my T-shirts. What could they do to me next?
My poor neck disappeared more quickly than the Thanksgiving turkey it now resembled.
That's why I decided to tell my story. I can't take on the medical profession by myself. Women of the world, wake up and smell the coffee.
That really isn't plastic that those surgeons are using. You KNOW where they are getting those replacement parts, don't you?
The next time you suspect someone has had a face "lifted", look again. Was it lifted from you?
I think I finally found my thighs .. and I hope that Cindy Crawford paid a really good price for them!
This is not a hoax. This is happening to women in every town every night. WARN YOUR FRIENDS.
P.S. I must say that last year I thought someone had stolen my breasts. I was lying in bed and they were gone! As I jumped out of bed I was relieved to see that they had just been hiding in my armpits as I slept. Now I keep them hidden in my waistband.

I laughed so hard when I read this....hehehehe I hope it gives you a chuckle!! Have a GREAT friday, I know I will!! :) :) :)

Been awhile~~

2005-05-17T04:41:00.000-07:00

Things are going pretty well here, I spoke to soon about the sun though, now we got the crazy rain one minute/shine the next spring like weather. I still haven't gotten my plants in, but boy did the slugs sure like the tender new stuff that was sitting out there ready to be planted. I swear I am gunna ask God (when it is my time) why slugs and cockroaches LOL. I am sure he had a reason, but for the life of me I don't know what it is :)

Tryouts for the new childrens show,Charolett's Web were last night to continue tonight. I don't know, I really don't care one way or the other IF I get a part. I read for the part of Charolett, I don't think I did that great, but again...if I get something I get it, one would think being that I am married to one of the directors that I could pretty much get anything, but nope HE is being stubborn...LOL, naw just kidding I really don't like people getting parts and stuff just cause of family.

I got kinda a funny for you, Tal will understand this more than anyone, a long while back when her and I were chatting pretty much everynight...we had this running joke about the taco bell dog, you all remember the Godzilla Taco Bell commercials, well her and I used to just get all silly about those adds....anyhow so everytime I would try and type in Dog it would come out Dong.....LMAO her and I would just crack up.....so A couple of days ago, I am typing the new script for Joe, and in comes this line where a carnival worker is announcing his special hot dogs, well the line was suppose to read, Foot-long, hot dogs....sure enough it came out Foot-long Hot Dongs.....ok, now the funny part is I didn't catch this and IF Joey hadn't seen it, people would have been reading it LMAO Joe and I just about rolled on floor laughing, can you imagine people reading THAT in a play rehearsal, or better yet at an audition.....hehehehehhe!!! Crack me up!!!
Anyhow Tal, that one was for you babe!!

So I go in to see a nurse practionier (sp?) about my tummy today, please oh please cross everything I don't have to have sugery, although the nurse on the phone pretty much said it sounded like a hurnia to her, and I would prolly be referred to the surgeon, SIIIIIGH I can't do another sugery. I have already had 4 Major abdominal sugeries, and one GYN one and I DON'T I REPEAT I DON'T want to do THAT again. Not to mention this will really put exercising on hold.....grumble, grumble...is that like Murfy's law or something. Seems like everytime I get going on something positive, I have to take MAJOR steps back.....GGGRRRRR!! Will give ya updates later today. And of course 20 minutes after I make Dr. appointment, I get called into work.....boy oh boy. I could have used the full day's pay. Oh well, I do have to get this taken care of. But my friends I am so scared. :( Oh well enough of that. You all have a great day, and hope you all are doing well......(((((HUGS))))))

UPDATE: Well, I did go to a nurse practitioner (sp?) I guess I am fine. No the little buldging thing in my belly botton, "may or may not be a hurnia, but highly doubtful that it is one" in any case it is ok for me to keep on with exercize yep even abs~~and doing my normal stuff. Tummy problems are gall bladder, and not much can be done. I guess it is a pretty classic case, of it flairs up, then calms down...ect. I am not sure what it will take for anything to get done, as I have had this tummy problem for years first major attack was when I was pregnant with my son 15 years ago...so ya know going with the reduced fat eating plan will help, and it does....it can only do me good I am thinking, as when I am bad and eat stuff I know I am not suppose to I get an attack....so all is well here. Well as well as can be expected in my little corner. :)

Here comes the sun~~

2005-05-13T05:52:00.000-07:00

Woooohoooo, after the last couple of soggy weeks, we are finally getting a bit of sun here, and let me tell ya, I LOVE IT!!!! Now maybe I can find time to work in my garden, I bought flowers a couple weeks back and there they sit still in the mini planters. I really want them in the ground. I bought Gladiolia bulbs about 2 months back, and after getting the spots cleaned up to put them, the rain came...hasn't been dry enough to even bother. But hopefully this weekend I can get'r done! Playing in the dirt is one of my favorite thing I tell ya! Kinda like my way of getting back to nature.

For those of you who posted birthday wishes, THANKS!! (((HUGS)))) it was a great birthday, I felt very spoiled. Turning 38 was a bummer (all that much closer to 40 YIKES) but all in all I had a nice relaxing week. But as you know it is back to the grind on mondays...LOL, I have been working all week but after today my scheldule goes back to on call. I am ok with it...well that is till I see my check for lack of work. The regular classrooms go out on summer break soon. So who knows how many hours I will get over the summer.....siiiigh. Oh well I guess it is back to the simple life...which is good for over summer, I guess. We will prolly be spending lots of time at the lake or beaches which is always a good thing. :) I DO LOVE MY BEACHES!!!!

Went out on a "date" with hubby last night. We went and saw that Play Steel Magnolias~~rolley eyes here, I feel it will lose money for our local theatre. I don't know IF you all remember but I posted that they put a Man in the part of Truvey(Dolly Pardon's part) what the hell were they thinking? I have no clue. I don't know maybe my mind was too closed, but I still have no idea How the hell when they read the script they saw a man for that part, Gay or not, it is not what that was about. (and no I am not bashing that lifestyle choice, I am bashing the change they made, some thing you can play around with....but not that one) I honestly don't think this will make that much money for our local theatre) But it was fun to get out with Hubby. Well ladies that is about it for my week, you all have a GREAT WEEKEND!! :) (((((((HUGS)))))

My weekend~~

2005-05-08T03:59:00.000-07:00

Well girls, it is my weekend!! Not only is today Mother's day, it is also my Birthday. Good thing it is my day...bad thing I gotta turn 38 (HHHMMM not sure I am liking THAT LOL) I have been having a very nice weekend so far. I kicked the weekend off with a dinner out. I had taken a class last spring, and they had their big recoginition dinner Friday, which was perfect planning, cause I really wanted Prime Rib for my birthday or Mother's day but the guy at the meat department tells me it is $9.99 a lb. and well we live on a beer budget lol, but the dinner served Prime Rib so of course I had that. Was pretty good. The dinner was at one of our "better resturants" here in town...so I got to dress all pretty. The dress I chose to wear was a pastel green, sundress with a matching sheer long jacket~~This was one of the new ones I bought when hubby and I went away back in March, and it is getting looser on me, mainly in the eerrr ummmm chest area, ok so I am losing my extra boobs (is this a good thing?) SURE I got plenty to share!! LOL. I was very happy, and felt all dressed up and pretty, also I am more excited about my eating/exercising plan now, as it seems to be working. Can we all give me a woooohooo!! I know you maybe getting a bit tired of it, but for me it helps to pat myself on the back!!

Then yesterday, my very best girlfriend takes me to our local day spa~~They were having a Mother's day special thing, none of the girls working there were working, just taking appointments and doing consults. So we get there, and we have a mini hand treatment done~~Was pretty cool. This morning I notice my hands are still soft. Then it was off to have a hair consult, well of course she says to me, I need more "depth" to my hair, My friend made an appoint to have a razor cut on her very naturally curly hair...for next weekend I am excited to see what it will look like. I am going with, and I may call latter in the week to see if the gal can do mine too. And I may pick up the hand stuff for my friend as she has extreamly dry skin. So then after the hair consult, we are off for the face skin consult...Ok this one was like they put you under a black light kinda thing, and damned if you don't look all old and yucky, yep thanks for making me feel ALL my years there!! LOL. then of course she reccomends her "treatments" for it. Past sun damage, and the small lines ect. Well, the they have the make-up people do their thing....It was pretty ok. I did get to pick up their cleaning system, as the lady had to remove all my make-up, with their products, and my skin is so soft, and not bumpy. And with our special for yesterday, we each got $10 off, so the whole system only cost $10. So my friend tells me my "real" present is we get to pick a day...and have the spa treatment done, she has pre-paid for me to have a pedicure, manicure(damn I have broken most of my nails) and a massage. Also with lunch. So when my nails grow out, prolly in a month or so we will go back for the whole treatment. ~~I will be Jello after they are done. Great thing about this place is, we have one in a town this size well ya know, it really is not expected. Bad thing about it is I could spend a small fortution (sp?) there ;) Then after all that we went to lunch and to wander around.
Back home hubby cooked me dinner. And I got some more presents. A lighted make-up mirror to finish off our bedroom, as a vanity area was put in, but I didn't have it organized, with mirror ect. I may do that today. I also got a movie It could happen to you. An oldy but goodie. Bath fizzies, and the worlds largest candle...OMG it it Yummy. A couple of tee-shirts, in a size smaller than I normally wear, and yes they fit!! Dinner ended with homemade carrot cake my other friend made for me YUUUUUMMMMYY!! All in all it was a great day. I am feeling very loved and special. :) :)

Again, I wish all you mom's out there a VERY SPECIAL DAY!! YOU DESERVE IT!! And for my pals who arent moms, I am hoping you have a special day with you mothers!!
Have a lovely day ((((HUGS))))) :) :)

My Mother's Day Card~~

2005-05-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

Ok so I am gunna brag :) But last night while Amanda and I are talking about her going to her boyfriends house, as I am rolling my eyes and thinking, Geeeze do ya live there girl. She goes into her room, gets a piece of paper and gives it to me...so my friends I share with you words that my child wrote for me for mother's day.....

On the front, Happy Mother's Day
"Goodbye"

As the seasons go by,
So do our lives.
I'm growing up now mom,
It's time to say good bye.

On December 15th, 1988
It was a cold winters night.
A baby's cry filled the air.
You gave me the breath of life.

On August 21st, 2003
You left to find your summer smile.
It was lonely around the house,
We missed you after a while.

On May 20th, 2004
Our lives changed for a couple of days,
I ran away, for 38 hours,
And now I'm here to stay.

On September 10th, 2004
These tragedies seemed to come clear,
I was diagnosed, with biplar Disorder,
And I felt a little bit of fear.

I never really took the time to say thank you.
You've saved my life, we fought a lot,
But we still had fun.

So I want to say Happy Mother's Day
I hope this doesn't make you cry.
I gave you the joy of motherhood,
But, for now, it's time to say our goodbyes.

I love you
Amanda

OMG I was a mess, crying so hard, it was awful. As I read this I am thinking it is funny she mentions my trip~~That was "your summer smile" She mentions good-byes, I said, "You are leaving me?" She says, it means goodbyes to our bad times...and mom, you need to start letting go. Siiiiigh, Ok so now I am crying again....LOL.

May Day~~~

2005-05-01T04:16:00.000-07:00

So I am sending a may day wish to each and everyone of you~~Ok ready set...Knock, Knock~~*you all go to your door and no one is there??? then you look down and see a lovely flower on your door step* HA HA...the May Day person has struck :) :) Does anyone remember doing this as a kid? I sure do, and to this day I love May Day. May for me is a good month normally. I don't know it just is kicks in, spring is in the air, my garden gets started....that my friends is today's plan (I think) We went and got Pansy's, Petunia's, and some other small plants. Alot of my stuff made it through last year so I won't need to buy everything....just clean up what I do have which is: Columbine, Snapdragons, Sweet willams, a HUGE mum(I have no idea what the heck I am gunna do with THAT monster, and my forget me nots, are just blooming away. I lost my Pansy's, and my Petunias...I thought this year I would just plant my Petunia's in planters around the garden. Cause last year they got so big that it was imposible to even trim them up. I also like cause May is my birthday month, along with Mother's Day...ok so I am a kid at heart and love my birthday still. :) hehehehe!!

To other news, the kids progress reports came in, Brandon turned his grades around, this was GREAT!!! I knew he was smart and could do it...Amanda's is another story, siiiigh. She is also smart and can do it, we are just gunna have to put a bit of pressure on her...again siiiigh. I sure wish everything was easier, but I guess parenting isn't meant to be easy.

Got our Kitty Boo, fixed yesterday, man oh man was he stoned. Hehehehe, he is doing well....at least I think so. I was pretty worried about him, and his wabbling around here last night, this morning he is still tired but doing well.

Since wednesday, I haven't felt too good, I think my ulcer is back big time.....grumble grumble....I really don't want to do this again. So I am trying to nip this is the bud before it gets waaaay bad, or worse than it is....I have some protonix left over from last time, and am taking malox....this morning it seems better...yesterday wasn't so good...which is politely saying I was in EXTREAM pain. But today is better please say a prayer, and or cross everything you have that this won't be full blown. Last time I did this ulcer thing, I lost 20 lbs. and I really would love the weight loss, BUT NOT THAT WAY!! Please hope for me, as I just don't want to do that diet plan anymore. It really pisses me off, as I am trying to do what I can to lead a healthier life style, I AM eating right, and exercising...but if it hurts just to walk around I can't imagine exercising at this point, So I have missed 3 days and feel it. :( Anyhow, I am sure it will get better, I also don't want to go in for all those tests again..YUCK!! I really hate doctors, there are reason....the term "Practicing medicine" is really funny IF you think about it..ya know. And most of them treat smokers as If they deserve every sickness they get...Ok, I know it is wrong of me to smoke, and I need to give it up...but geeeze, I think I deserve just as good of medical treatment as a non-smoker...ya know? Anyhow I don't want to go in to the docs...I just don't, but I will if the protonix doesn't work. So much for the taco dinner I was planning for my birthday dinner...I had decided on Tacos cause I haven't had them on my "diet" cause they are full of fat, and calories.....damn. But who knows maybe just maybe it will get better.....siiiiigh.

Well, anyhow that is enough of me complaining, have a great may day all!!!!! ((((HUGS))))) :) :)

hello, and a good morning~~

2005-04-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

So Wednesday, I did do the pedicure...lol I don't know if it kept me on track of all the stuff I gotta do, but my feet did look pretty. I will do another one tomorrow, or maybe even today. I was suppose to go into work, but they cancled....whatever...I guess I didn't need the 7 hour shift, ya know I am so damn rich...LMAO. But that is ok, cause today is my bestest buds birthday....so her and I will poke about town today instead of work...I am not sure of the kind of trouble we will get into but I bet we will have a good day.
Prom for Amanda went GREAT!! :) she looked beautiful(although IMO waaaaay to grown up) and the funny thing is since Prom she has been ALOT more helpful around here...doing stuff without being asked, and stuff. She even cooked breakfast on sunday for us, compleate with dishing up our plates and everything...I walked into the kitchen, to my waffle fixed with applesause (a way to cut calories, and make them a bit more nutritious) LMAO, so she kept me honest cause I was prolly gunna use butter and syrup that day. Then for lunch that day, she made her dad sandwiches, and took them outside to him, without even being asked...this work stuff has included doing laundry, even yesterday folding it.....I am scratching my head...and thinking "OOOHHH IF EVERY DAY COULD BE PROM DAY" I don't know, I think she is just feeling good or something. We had a bit of a discussion about her eating habbits, she has lost weight, and THAT is not good. Don't know if any of you know but she is very thin, has always been, and well she was just not eating...not a good thing at all....I was/am very concerned, as I really don't need another dissorder, but I will also fight THAT if need be. So that could be the reason for the extra energy....since saturday, she is back to eating. Some of the problme is her meds make her nausious(spelling boo-boo sorry) that, and being picky...oh well, she doesn't know how stuborn her mother can be, I will keep her strong and healthy at ANY COST!!!
Boy child seems a bit moody lately...don't know what is up with that...he has taken a real interest in "making money" wants a job and all that...I have told him he can do yard work, and make a pretty good bit of spending money....we will see if that works out. So far he made $20.00 over last weekend, and has kept most of it. Him and I went tennis shoe shopping yesterday..I needed a good pair of exercize/work shoes....got some L.A. Gears for $20.00 and wore them last night for our work out, and man oh man what a difference a good pair of shoes make....woooohoooo, only problem is I wanted/needed high tops, and of course they are out of fashion...oh well, these will do nicely, as my ankles didn't hurt, nor did my feet. They are lower than normal high tops, but seem to do the trick. Had a problem with foot pain last week, that almost sent me into the docs...I think it was my old tennis shoes.....cause after a work out last night in the new ones, they didn't hurt that and not wearing old ones, so in the trash they go. I prolly will never go to wally world or pay-less for shoes again these are so comfy!!!
Hey I lost another pound so I am at a total of 13lbs. since the first of January, and I am starting to really note a difference in the way my body looks. My tummy is shrinking, slowly, but shrinking none the less....last week I got into a pair of my "old-tight" stretch denim....wooooohoooo, and they are even a bit baggy in the thighs. I have no idea what I am gunna do for clothes here pretty quick, but oh well, cause I have at least 4-6 more sizes to go...and I am not buying new clothes at each size, HHHMMMM this could get spendy, oh well. I think I am also gunna add, 20 min. a day on a exercize bike(when I find one) and try for a 10-30 minute abdomanal workout, lord knows I have the tapes I just gotta find the time. Also my membership to the gym is still good, and my other friend has invited me to go with her to the gym anytime she goes, so this will add varity to my exercize routines, which lord knows I need!!
All is pretty well here, so I will close this with a BIG (((((HUG))))) to all!! Take care, and luvs to ya~~~:) :) :) :)

Odds and ends stuff~~

2005-04-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

Whew, the week is finally over...worked my hiney off. Back up to almost 40hrs. again. Wow, I am eating my words now. LMAO. I am also pre-booked until the end of May, with most weeks looking like this last week. I guess I just wasn't patient enough. I wanted hours I now have them. LOL, but like I said earlier, the money will be nice. AND a semi-stable scheldule will also be nice. So as far as work all is good.

On the home front, all is pretty good too...kids are getting over the crud they had. Man that stuff was nasty, it laid Brandon out for 3 days straight. Alls he did was sleep, and that is not like him. Amanda of course got it too...she is still sniffiling and snorkaling. So my bad...she stayed home thursday and the of course "got better" just in time for her shopping trip on thursday night...I swear I don't know what to do with this kid......I tell her, "if you are too sick to go to school, you are too sick to go on the shopping trip." Of course I get, "I know mom." Then by thursday night she is "Better" siiiiigh, I am a bad mom, of course I let her go....as I am soooo tired of fighting with her. Please don't tell me what a bad mom I am...I know it. :( She has me (for lack of a better term here) by the balls and she knows it....SIIIIGH!!

UUMMM, I got a question for the people who do actually read my blog here.....When surfing around blog-land, I read your blogs, and comment occasionally...but for some odd reason when I close haloscan, it closes down my whole screen...and I have to go back in and resign in to yahoo.(that could be the reason I don't reply to some of you) anyone know why this would do this, and what I need to do to fix it?? Any help would be appreciated...thanks in advance.

Well that is about it, cept well as of tuesday I lost 2 lbs. of the 3 I gained back...wooohhhoooo, it is slow going but worth it (I think) Only problem is by the end of the week, I am so tired I don't care what I eat or IF I exercize...I can't seem to get past the wednesday hump.....so by wednesday, I start tapering, then thursday, taper more...friday is blown compleately....sat too...sunday I "get back on" only to repeat this vicious cycle....YIKES!! OHHHH, hey I got back into a pair of my stretch jeans.....that I hadn't been able to wear since....OHHH 3 or 4 months ago.....WOOOOHOOOO guess I need to think about that when I start my weekly decline~~huh? Ok, so hey all have a great weekend, and I will be sure to catch ya later!!((((HUGS)))))

Recent stuff~~~

2005-04-13T03:45:00.000-07:00

Well again I should say be careful what ya wish for....LMAO after complaining about no hours at work, the go and pre-book me..for the next couple of weeks, and even into the beginning of May...I am booked to almost 40 hrs a week. Holy smokes and a YIKES!! LOL, no it will be nice to "bask in the money" hehehe ;) I may just get some of my bills paid off.
As you know (if you do read here) I have been working on my personal issues, mainly my weight and keeping my house in better order. Well both are going pretty dang good if I don't say so myself. Since January (no it wasn't a new years resolution it just started the first of the year) I have lost 10 lbs. gained 3 back with my mini vacation and now have lost 2 more so I am at a grand total of 9 lbs. not much, but I can sorta tell. I know I feel better and yes I think I even look better. Due to my friends back injury we had to quit using the FIRM (it was/is a bit much for her) but we will go back to it someday....so for now we are using Richard Simmons....LMAO alls I can say is he sure is goofy. But let it be known that goofy-man can kick my ass. LOL, it is still a work out I tell ya. My friend has also lost quite a bit. Around the 10 lb mark. It is a good slow steady pace we have going. With ups and downs. which is normal. I think. Personally I think the water is playing a big part in it. I know I feel better when I drink it, and on the weeks I get most (if not all) of my water in, are the weeks I actually lose, and I feel better. So who knows, maybe this is finally the right thing for me.
My house is shaping up too. I have kept things rolling right along, and the funny thing is the kids and hubby help alot more. I did a MAJOR clean a week ago Monday, and the beds have been made everyday since, and they have managed to hit the dishwasher everynight too....woooohoooo!! Right now things are a bit rough, Brandon has that respitory flu, and of course Amanda came down with it too. I am waiting for Joe and I to catch it...I sure hope not, as my son has been off since Monday, and still looks pretty bad. Siiiigh, I sure hate it when my kids are sick!!! Not anything I can do for them either. :( ((((HUGS)))) to them. The poor things!!
Monday we had our first meeting for the July Jubilee thing, and Thursday "we" are going shopping. They buy their formal dresses first then can match everything else to it. Of course they picked pink, which is a color that doesn't look good on Amanda....wooops. But we will wait and see what the girls come up with. Does this cost me...nope, they "the girls" are represenatives of our town, for the week of the celebration (and before) so we will go shopping with someone else's money. Now that will be interesting...hehehehe, I sure hope she can take alot of positive stuff from this.

UMMM not much else going on here, cept sleep is alluding me again....but this time I have decided to just go with it. I get up super early, and get my stuff done before work, so well instead of hating or getting mad about it, I am just going with it. Well that is about it.
I hope all of you are well, and doing good. ((((HUGS)))) take care!! :)

In the theme of America's Most Wanted.....

2005-04-09T05:07:00.000-07:00

While driving home from work, the Diranged Dizster ends up speeding...Oh, no what she she do when she see the police car turning on his lights well this hardened criminal decides to play it cool as a cucumber.....pulling over and handing over her liscense, and insurance paper, with a sweet smile on her face she answers no to the question: "Do you know why I pulled you over?" Then low and behold, another car pulls up in front of the Dizsters car, as the man gets out, the officer asks her, "Is he a friend of yours." She gives a slight giggle and says, "It's my husband." The officer then tells the man, "Sir, please get back in your car, and drive away." LMFAO...like Joey and I are going to do a shoot out or something, while I am being stopped for doing 40 in a normally 35 mile an hour street. Well, it also had something to do that this 35 mile an hour zone is about 6 blocks long, with school zones right in the middle....so for 2 blocks it is 20 then 2 blocks 35, and then the last 2 blocks 20 school zone again....it was 6:30 and the signs says shcool zone from 7:15 to 4:00.....so what is a girl to do? So I got off with just a tiny warning, for at least doing 40 in a 35 mph zone.(but he COULD have still given me a ticket, Oregon has passed a new state law, that school zones are 20 mph 24/7) WHEW!! but the really funny part was when my husband was going to pull up to give me grief...and officer wouldn't let him. I can see his point, I mean if you think about it, and you have watched any of the reality police shows...you can see my little joke here. ;) right? That was thrusday night...then yesterday crusing down the same street...I did do 20 and let me tell you....20 IS SLOW!! Oh well at least I won't get pulled over again!
Worked again yesterday, and have been booked for ALOT more days in April, and even some in May...gunna be busy again.
About work, let me throw out a question here....Now you all know I have worked as a TA for pretty close to 5 years, permant and all that...well when I took time off, I had to go back down to subbing...right? Well, there is a gal that has been a pretty regular sub (in my old classroom) now do you guys think it is right for her to sub for other people in that class and then give me her "left-over" hours...that is right, she is getting the 8 hour shifts, and I am getting the lower hours...to me this feels like they are using me...what you think? or should I just be happy that I am getting hours? I think I may take the second one.....I don't know, it feels weird going back into that classroom...I don't feel like part of "the team" anymore (not that I ever really did) so I guess I should just back off, and play it cool huh?
Oh well, things could be worse here, I am sure!! huh?
With all those rambles, I am off here, HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!! ((((HUGS))))

How silly of me~~

2005-04-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

I can't believe I didn't tell you guys our new news~~ AMANDA DID GET THE JULY JUBILEE thingy!!! wooooohooooo she was pretty happy about it!!

In other news around here, son is studying the Civil War and after 16 hrs. of North and South (my favorite mini-series) and now 4 hours of Gettysburg, I can say I think I am pretty ok on information about this Civil War...LOL.

Anyhow I just remembered that I forgot to tell ya the good news, so I thought I would.
Have a great evening guys!!!

Big Mall Shopping~~~

2005-04-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

Goodness, we spent ALL day in the 2 big malls, WHEW! But found THE PERFECT DRESS!! YEEPPIE~~ It is black spaghetti strap, with light blue accents. The accents, are 3 light blue stripes, ending with bows that runs right under her bust line down to her waistline, with a light blue under lay on the slightly puffy full length skirt. OMG, does she look good in it!!! This girl, is all of 5'3" and about 105lbs. Long waist, and VERY petite~~so the dress shows off all of that. Compleate, with little black evening bag, jewlery, and shoes~~I spent a bit more on the whole thing...but still did ok. Grand total came to $160.00 But I still think I did ok, as I got "extras" like the jewlery, a choker type necklace, earings, and hair clips, and the purse. The shoes were a bit more than I wanted to spend also, but again I have to tell myself that this is once in a lifetime thing for her. AND, I will be saving $$ by doing her nails(feet, and hands) myself, as I do a pretty good pedicure and manicure. Now alls I gotta do is set a hair appointment for her, and we are good to go!! She also got another dress, my g/f bought it for her marked down to $20.oo on the understanding that Amanda HAS to babysit for free, a couple of times. It is black with crisscross in the back, high neck with rinstones sprinkled on the front. Very low back, it is toooo cute!! AND the shoes and purse and jewlery we got match this one too...who knows maybe IF she goes to prom next year she can wear that one!! If I could figure out how to post pictures after the grand event, I would...I may have to have someone talk me through it....only problem is I know come prom night I will prolly tear, as she looks so grown up. I sure wish I had a figure like hers!! It was funny, we went into our second dress store, and was "helping" 2 other girls with their "dresses" by letting them know our picks....hehehe all 3 girls were so cute~~~AAAHHHHH to be young again, it would be nice. Then it was off to poke around at other stores~~mainly Spencers, OMG THAT store is shocking, LMAO some of those things are too damn funny!! Kids and I had a great laugh on the way home about a errr ummmm "interesting" shaped pina'ta(sp?) Too funny, I was laughing so hard I could barley drive!!! All is good here, well cept I once again blew my diet plan~~MAJOR~~ Cinnabons are way to good!! And going out to eat is really not a good thing at all. I brought some Cinnabons home for hubby, but I am staying out of them he will be taking them to work tomorrow. He is pretty good about keeping the junk out of the house and getting on the kids when the leave stuff around, Pat my joey on the back, gotta love him!!

Anyhow, today I am meeting with a girlfriend of mine, one I haven't seen in about 2 or 3 years so I best be getting a move on...hope all is good with you guys much love and ((((HUGS)))) :D :D

AAAAHHHHH~~~Life is good!!!

2005-04-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

After not having my Slang CD for well over 6 months hubby put it in the middle section without a cover of my car seats, then had someone sit there. It broke in half. And with not working over the summer it seemed kinda silly to be buying myself a CD, when our money needed to go towards household stuff. Anyhow I ordered it a couple of weeks ago...and it came in yesterday. HOW I MISSED THAT CD!! I know it is silly, but that was/is one of my favorites when driving in my car. Expecially after a tiring day at work, put it in go the back/senic way home....SIIIIGH.

For today, we will be going out of town...a day trip to a town called Eugene, 2 hours away. We are purchasing a prom dress for Amanda, as her B/F is a junior and they have decided to go to the Prom.....Last year while shopping (dreaming) we found a shop that had some real cute formals...for $100.00 or less. Was talking to one of my co-workers, and she had bought her daughter's 8th grade graduation dress at the same shop for $11.00. I am like WOW, I sure hope we can find a deal like that!! Brandon and his friend are going too, just to cruise the mall while us gals are shopping. It should be pretty fun day today. And then tomorrow, a friend called one that has lived in Washington for the past couple of years, we are going to meet at the beach tomorrow. Lets hope it doesn't rain...what am I talking about THIS is after all Oregon....so we will prolly settle for coffee somewhere or something. Anyhow this gal trained me at my job and has always been there for me, I was very sad when she moved away, as one always can use extra support in their lives. So it is off to another super busy weekend...which is a good thing!!! Hope all of you have a great weekend!! (((((HUGS)))))) :)

Things that are on my mind~~~

2005-03-31T05:22:00.000-08:00

Why is it in this great nation of ours where weight problems are serious, that when I find a doable program, I can't seem to stay on it for more than a couple of days?

Ok, so this isn't really a bitch or a depression post...it is sorta an "I am irked at myself kinda thing"

You may or may not remember a while back I had posted about "working" on some personal stuff.....and ya know, I have found a few things that really work, but....and here it is the BIG BUT (lmao not refering to my backside, but I may well be hehehe!!) Why is it I can't seem to find the umpf to do "what I need to"
A) It makes me feel better!!
B) Even in a short time I think I look better! (ya know skin looks better, and I think I carry myself better therefore I look better)
C) my attitude IS better. ect.
D) I sleep MUCH better!
so why in the heck am I fighting it? My friend was talking about starting again with exercize, and I automatacally hesitate. Why????
Why is it instead of getting a piece of fruit, or something healthy, I headed for carmel corn (that son left sitting on the coffee table) need to talk with him about that. Mr. Can eat anything and still remain "Stick Boy"
Why is it so hard to drink water, instead of coffee or pop??
I just don't get it...it is like setting myself up or something~~Any ideas? I don't know, maybe I just lack a real sense of motivation...and ya know IF I feel better I just don't get it.

Oh well~~guess it will remain one of life mysteries, why I sorta set myself up. Anyhow take care ya all, hope to be hearing from ya soon. :) ((((HUGS)))))

Well I am back~~

2005-03-25T07:36:00.000-08:00

And quite relaxed I might add. LOL Hubby and I had a great time, nothing big just lazin around, thinking about being married (big change for us ya know with EVERYTHING that we have gone through in the last 9 months or so, we sorta put US on hold as most parents do when their child is in trouble) it was nice to just be...ya know what I mean? Anyhow I won't go on about what a great man I have....well, :) I might!! LOL.

My kids had a good time too, thanks to my bestest IRL buddy, she is so great with them!! We walked in last night, and no one was in a big hurry to go home.... :)

All is pretty good in my world, except I come back and find that my good friend Terri is still have a bit of problems....my friends say a prayer for her, she is one special lady who deserves the very best life can offer.

UMMMM ok, so about the concert, I choose not to go. I had decided the $100.00 I was gunna spend on tickets should be spent on this latest trip hubby and I had coming up...I couldn't do both...and really it was worth it!! Now IF I should happen to get those tickets for my upcoming birthday, I wouldn't be to sad...LOL, hint, winkey, winkey, hint, hint...LOL. No really it is ok, I have seen them twice and I so NEEDED to be married, just married, without kids problems...SIIIIIGH. Ok done there~~:)

Well, after weighing in this morning, I only gained 1 lb. back, thank the lord it wasn't more, so ya know I really got to get going back on my routines.

Anyhow that is about it. It is good to be back in my own home...I missed my computer time. And I missed seeing how all of you are on a daily basis. I hope all of you are well and happy...take care and ((((HUGS)))) :) :) :)

Monday's news~~~

2005-03-21T05:51:00.000-08:00

Well I got about a 3 part post here so here it goes~~

First and foremost help me wish our good friend Terri a GREAT BIRTHDAY!! Girl I hope your day is great!! Many of you don't know but this girl, is one of the bestest friends a person can hope for!! She came into my life when things were very dull, and boring. She brightened them with her wit, and humor and has taught me the power of laughter, and smiles. So my special friend, My wish for you is a great day, with lots of smiles and laughter!!! ((((HUGS)))))

Part 2 here, I will be out of town for the next few days...yep just me and hubby lazing in the....errrr ummm good ol' Oregon rain. LMAO, while he gets to learn about his job..I get to laze around the hotel room. Then it will be off to nice dinners, and back to the room...to errr ummm, well you all get the picture. After all the stuff that has gone on it will be nice to just be the two of us..winkey dude here. LOL. So anyhow, I sure hope all of you have a great week, and nothing major happens.

Part, well due to this trip, I didn't get my tickets for the DL thing here in portland...but I am hoping someone will get them for me for my birthday...then again, if not...nothing can be better than my last DL concert...ya know? So it is all good that I didn't get the tickets...well not great, but ok.

Anyhow my friends take care, and know I will be thinking of ya...(((HUGS)))) to all of ya!!!!

TGIF~~

2005-03-18T05:01:00.000-08:00

Well today is friday, and thank goodness. Although I had monday and tuesday off....so I am pretty relaxed. (That is till I see my next check lol) I only worked 12 hours this last week, so ya know it is back to the roller coaster on the budget...oh well I guess it is only money so I shouldn't worry to much huh?

Monday starts spring break for the kiddies, and Hubby and I get to get away for 4 days of it...YEP, ALONE, KIDLESS, JUST HIM AND I~~can ya tell I am a bit excited. wooooohoooo!! Seeing as the last time we got to be alone was our 14th wedding anniversary (this year will be 17) so I think it is time. His job is sending him to Portland...so we will pay the extra for a double room...and poof a real cheap vacation. While he is at classes I get to sit around, and read, and rest, and just do not much of anything......:) I think it will be good, as things here are you know the "normal" and some me (and us time) is deserved. Anyhow, that is all about that.

This week was as I said pretty laid back...which is a good thing. My friend is doing somewhat better, although she still hurts pretty bad...poor thing. I personally think she is trying to take on too much...but trying to tell her that is not working..LOL.

I am still trying to decide IF I want to go to the Portland show....I don't know. Tickets go on sale either today or tomorrow....It would be fun, but I am not sure.....Would love it if someone wanted to meet up or something...any takers Portland show June 1st???

Ok gals that is about it, hope all of you had a great week, and will have an even better weekend~~~((((((HUGS)))))))

Checking in real quick like~~

2005-03-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

Well, I found out today I didn't get that job...I was sorta expecting that, as I didn't feel very comfortable after the interview. hind-sight is a beautiful thing...huh?
I am ok with it, well as ok as I can be. Was nice dreaming~~I do think or have to believe that things will work out, and that maybe I am still am where I am for a reason...you know the closed door open window thingy. As I have in my mind a totally different possible avenue for myself....more about that later.
I won't be around most of the weekend, I am going to go stay with my friend, her hubby has a very demanding full time business, and I can't see them paying someone to watch their little boy....he is after all my favorite 4 year old. Anyhow I am tired, and will check in later...OHHH yeah, Portland DL Brian Adams concert is a possibility....so I hope Patty will think on it some more, if not that is fine too...I can go with Joey, or now Brandon wants to go with me....HHHMMMM

Take care all ((((HUGS))))

What has been going on in my world~~

2005-03-08T04:27:00.000-08:00

You may ask yourself this~~or maybe not. LOL things here are pretty good. I am working on the 3rd week in a row of 40 hrs a week. I tell ya the quickest way for me to get hours was to let them know I was looking for another job. HHHMMMMM, that is a funny thing huh? Course this many hours makes me tired....I come home and just eat and crash...so much for house work, and or exercize. Speaking of exercize, my very bestest friend, and exercize bud...ended up in the hospital this last weekend, she had been having back problems (not really due to exercize but I am sure this didn't help things too much) well darn it all she now has a buldging disk OUUUUCH!!! Can ya all say a prayer for her, as she is the bestest person in the world and loves to do EVERYTING for everyone (she is now being forced to take care of herself) I feel so bad for her, and there is not much we can do except wait and see if the disk will go back on its own, I so hope this is the case. this lady has taught me sooo much about what it is to be a friend. ((((HUGS and thoughts go to my good friend))))

I am still yahoo gameless...drats, I loved playing collapse. Joey did all the stuff it said in the email directions, and still nothing, he spent ALOT of time on sunday trying to figure it out...well screw yahoo, anyone got a place I can play games??? (Not that I really need to spend more time on here, but gee wiz I would love to have some down time)

I still haven't heard from the job interview, a week ago today....wonder when they will call. Oh well, I am pretty much over the self doubt (finally) so I will just wait, singing my little song~~"I am just waiting on...a phone call" sung to the tune of Stone's WAITING ON A FRIEND LMAO ya know I can carry a tune, lucky it is in my head that I am singing this...hehehehe!!!

Amanda's application for July Jubilee court has been excepted, now that just means she will go through the interview process ect....crossing fingers for her.

And Brandon yesterday pops up with: I am going to start saving my money to buy me a car....wow, at 14 he is thinking of cars..YIKES, then again he made a very good point, if he works for it, saves for it....he will treat it better~~don't ya think? I sure hope he makes it and who knows maybe by the time he is 16 or 17 we can match what he has in the bank. We will see. I am proud of him that he is thinking about this!!

Taxes came in finally~~alls I can say is GREAT, we can finally get a handle on some of these bills that have piled up since last spring. And I can go stock up my pantry (well my kitchen cupboards) I haven't done that in awhile, so as weird as it sounds I am looking foward to it...I get all depressed and weird when my cupboards aren't full. (I think it is from growing up poor, and it is an issue with me) And who knows maybe Amanda and I can do a little shopping. We just got a Ross's and she is dying to go~~we will see. I can also get my hair cut, UUUGGGGG it is so shaggy, then again working 10 to 6 I can't get in at the right time. So prolly next week...woooohoooooo, no more bad hair days!! LOL, I know it is the little things that excite me anymore. Well that is about it for me...boring stuff I know.

Have a great day ladies, (((((HUGS)))) to each and everyone of ya!!!
:) :) :)

Anyone know~~~

2005-03-05T06:05:00.000-08:00

Just what the hell is up with Yahoo? OMG I have been sitting here for an hour or so trying to figure this thing out!! About ready to pull out my hair I am.

So first I had played yahoo games for quite awhile, now all the sudden I get a box, with blue, red, and green shapes in it, instead of the screens. I have gone, oh here is my email now...wonder what it will say.

Ok second I downloaded the new tool bar, and after signing in 3 or 4 times....it won't work....blah, I hate computer!! If it werent for the fact that I manage to talk with people on here...I would do it...Ok so now off to pull my hair some more (at this rate I will be bald!!)

UPDATE: Ok, that was a nice long email....oh my gosh...I think I will wait till hubby gets up and he can figure it out.(I am such a dork when it comes to this stuff) Maybe I should have him show me, or write down just exactally what to do. Have a great day guys...maybe I will be able to play my games soon, as I missed them ALOT!! (((((HUGS)))) Hope everyone is well, and feeling GREAT!!! :)

Job Interviews~~

2005-03-02T05:13:00.000-08:00

Well ya know I personally think that job interviews shouldn't be the basis for getting a job. No one is at their best during one of these. I know I can do this job, I have been doing it for years. But I get in there, and LMAO I have met (and or worked with, not for long mind you) 2 of the 3 people on the panel. So hey do you think that put me at ease...well nope not really. Gosh I was so nervous. So I get through the 3 person panel interview, and it is on to met the director a real nice lady that I have trained with. So that was a total of 4 people and out of those 4 people 3 of the have in the past worked with the company I work for now. By the time I had gotten to talk with the director, my adrenalin was going and I tured into a talk a mile a minute woman. LMAO...ok so today it is down to where I can finally laugh about it. So hopefully she saw that I was full of energy. That would be a good point. I honestly believe at this point IF I get it it won't be because of my great interview skills....it will be because my experience will and does speak for itself.

One question I thought was rather odd was: What will you do if you don't get this job? So I am like eeerrr ummm(yes those two "words" were in my vocabulary yesterday LOL) I answered pretty much what I am doing now~~waiting for something permanent.

Am I worried, naaaw. See peeps I have learned alot in the past 6 months. Stop worring about the little stuff, cause the big stuff is coming. Will it be nice if I do get it...you bet ya. I can be a bit sad, but really this is not the end all beat all thing for me. Working so hard here to stay positive~~Can ya tell? I think right now today, I am just still in the wishing mode. If I manage to get it....great. I am also in the play-back mode..don't ya just hate that. "I could/should have said", YIKES I could drive myself crazy.

Good thing is I will know either way, either by the end of this week or sometime next week. I thought that was very very good. At least I won't be waiting for the thanks but no thanks letter. Again ladies cross everything that I did better than I thought I did. Ya ever notice how hard it is to "sell yourself" geeeeze I sure can't do it.

AAAHHHH well who knows maybe my negative attitude is coming through and I did do better than I thought~~we will wait and see. Till then take care and (((((HUGS)))))

Update: Still playing the waiting game. You know they will call me either way....errrr uuummm well it was suppose to be end of last week (which would have been friday) or next week sometime. So for now I am singing the Stone's song...I am just waiting, ect. Course it doesn't say I am just waiting on a job interview, but hey I can change that right? LOL, thanks for your support guys!!!

Pray, Pray, Pray~~~

2005-03-01T05:26:00.000-08:00

Well or cross everything. This is not a religious post...I just know in my times of need I have all of you around the nation praying for me...and let me tell ya, It has worked before. Let's hope it will work again. Today I set off for my interview. And well really gals I want this pretty bad. but I think honestly I just need you guys to pray for calm for me mostly. But ok here are my reasons I want this. I really don't care for working on call(this is insane after 5 years of not doing it) What I thought would be flexable really is not. And I so miss being part of a team ok ok I know my last team may not have been the untamate situation)...but at least I could throw my ideas and sorta know what was expected of me, and the kids knew I was "a real teacher" now I am just a visitor. I want to be able to know when and where I am working everyday. I also think it may be time for me to learn "new tricks" Hehehehehe!! Always more to learn in life...if I have not learned anything at least I have learned that. Right?

Well, also I guess I need to say as if right now it is in God's hands. What will be will be. I can't sit here and "worry" about it all day(I will be usless if I do) So in advance if you are thinking of me (or praying) THANKS A BUNCH..I know it worked last time..it has gotta work this time. Have a great tuesday all~~Much love and ((((HUGS))))) :) :)

Monday morning pondering~~

2005-02-28T05:27:00.000-08:00

The weekend went pretty well, Brandon had a good birthday. With his friends staying over saturday night, Joe taking them to the beach (and mircle of mircles the weather coporated it was pretty nice for them) Then back here to open his presents. He did very well, 4 X-box games later and I didn't see them boys for the rest of the nigh...oohh yeah cept when they had to go pee, or needed something to eat....LOL. I picked up Cold Moutain, love that movie cept I forgot how sad it really is. We managed to find a resell place for games and movies...that was why he got so many games, I managed to walk out of there with 2 x-box games and a movie, for under $40.00 Then the next day we took in our regular nentindo game and got store credit, so he got another game, and we also got a game for our nentindo 64 and a better controller. Later I asked IF he cared that the stuff was used.....he said No. So I said you look at it like I do, you can get more....right? He said right! Good kid...I taught him well. I also scored on books for him...I managed to pick up 5 Stephen King (I know creepy but he likes them wonder IF I should be worried lol) for under 15.00 again at a used book store, I know me being cheap...but hey 3 of them were in excellent shape, the 2 other werent, but he really wanted those. Anyhow he got some neat fishing stuff from his grandparents in alaska...then his sister bought him a black light for his room...it really does well on his "babe wall" makes their skimpy little outfits glow, now if that just doesn't please me...I don't know what does (LMAO and rolley eyed dude here) other odds and end stuff...then on the grand fanally~~Yep a hunting rifle, now I am not sure about this..but he really wanted one, so yep I guess it is a right of passage a man thing I don't know. But all in all I think he was very happy with everything. It is funny I gave him books and his dad gave him a gun. HMMMMM kind of a weird thing don't ya think.

Gosh I am nervous thinking about tomorrow, I have a meeting at 8 this morning to go over interview stuff. Don't know IF it will help or not. I just have to remember that I am already doing this job, so really no biggie....RIGHT???

Well happy thoughts going out to all of you!! HAVE A GREAT MONDAY!! ((((((HUGS))))))

This could be a long one......

2005-02-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

First and foremost...I really need to tell you guys that I am sorry my last post (and yes alot of them) are depressing....I need to think before I post. I get so blah all the dang time...and I am sure you all get rather tired of me bitching. Amanda had a "thing" or rather a rage 2 weeks ago, the girl didn't think she needed to take her meds on a regular basis. Well let me tell you THAT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN!! I know some here are kinda against pills...but in this case she needs them. And if she doesn't have them my whole house turns into a battle field. I can or won't live my life in a battle field...and if she needs it then damn it she will take them. Cause when she doesn't she rages, and it sends me into a depression myself. So basically the last couple of weeks I have been in a "funk" I am coming out of it, slowly but coming out of it none the less.

Back to my "diet and exercize" program. I had sorta stopped again. And well I can't stop anymore. I need to do this for myself. So to answer Rhonda's and Stacy's questions, I am not on a diet persay rather than a lifestyle change. I don't say I can't have this or that. Rather I say I am choosing not to eat this stuff. I think also what happened, is I took 3 major goals in my life and began to work on them all at once....WRONG. I took on too much. So, I am going to try and make monthly goals. This month's goal: DRINK ALL MY WATER, EVERYDAY!

Hey also, great news here~~Remember the job I applied for a month ago, I got the interview....OMG I am so excited. Please cross EVERYTHING you got girls, as I am really nervous about the interview on Tuesday. But a good thing I can go in early and look over the questions. So that may help either that or make me more nervous. I have already planned on what I am going to wear. Ok see now I am thinking about it and getting all nervous again. Ok I can do this....really it has been what I have been doing for the past 5 years, 10 if you count the job before that. Right, so that is all I need to do is think about I have been doing this, i have been doing this ect...chant that till my brain accepts it. LOL

Oh and another VERY important event takes place tomorrow: My baby boy turns 14 Sunday. Baby Boy my eye. (little tears here) Little no longers applies to him. 14 WOW!!

WELL BRANDON HAPPY BIRTHDAY SON...MOM LOVES YOU!!!! :D
Today his friends will come over for a sleep over, and if it doesn't pour down rain, they will go out to the beach today. Tomorrow I will fix a nice breakfast, and then he wants a seafood fest. Salmon steaks, shrip cocktail, and noodles.

Well for those of you who don't know, the births of my children were pretty amazing. I almost lost both of them. I can remember it was February 25 14 years ago, I had been home and was having funky contractions...ok this was my second child so I did what I needed to do, drank my water, laid down and got some rest...and still I was having contractions. Now I knew I wasn't in labor seeing as my due date was still two weeks away..but I thought my doc should know, so about 4 in the afternoon I call....he says ok no biggie come in and we can check ya out. Well I had previously arranged to have my sis in law drive me in (ok no laughing I couldn't reach the peddals of my car around my big belly) She said she had something more important to do. Ok now back up here, with both of my preganancies, my blood pressure had went sorta beserk. Not to the point of toxicima...but close. My diet was monitored, both times...ok so my sis in laws answer just raised my blood pressure, here I am needing to go in, and no ride. I called my mom all hysterical(which I am sure wasn't helping blood pressure much) Mom said, ok honey breathe...call Joe, so I did. LMAO he got there in 10 minutes. What a maniac. A drive that normally takes a minum of 20 minutes took him only 10. So anyhow, we get back up town, to docs...and he checks me, of course I hadn't been doing much cept my blood pressure was way off the charts...so he orders 100% bed rest and says, "now I know with that child you have at home (she was 2 years and 3 months at the time) you will not get any rest, so it is off to the hospital for you till you have this baby. Good Grief, stuck in the hospital. So after I go home and get my bags, go shopping for a nighty, robe, slippers the works...have dinner and finally drag my butt in there at about 7:30. He does an ultra-sound, they had planned on an Amnio but I didn't have enough fluid for one. They decide let me see what did the doctor say: The risks of leaving this baby in out weigh taking it early. He was in not very good shape. I had been losing water, blood pressure was pretty high. Basically the doc said, in 72 hours this baby could be born comatos (sp?) So ok I say, go ahead. 2 days later, the wheel me in for my second C-section birth. OH only after the doc asked if we wanted to know the sex of the baby, we answer No, then he proceeds to say, well you will not be able to pass down your daughter's clothes..plan a shopping trip...LMAO ERRRR thanks we said NO we didn't want to know. But we sorta guessed from the ultra sound anyhow....Mr. Brandon was giving us a perfect bent over butt shot.....eeerrrr his ummm little, well you know was just hanging down. Joe was so proud!! LMAO.

so they get me all preped, and the doc is so dang quite...that we can hear EVERYTHING.....Joe kinda lost it, well then he had to leave, as passing out wouldn't have helped a thing. So I lay there and wait for my baby boy. (gosh guys I am almost crying here happy tears though) Ok so it is done, they say you have a boy...but I remember they didn't show him to me right away, I am still not sure why...I think he may have been a bit on the blue side...no one told me. And really 14 years later alls I can say is I AM SURE GLAD HE CAME INTO MY LIFE. At 8:32 am, I was the proud Mama of a5lb 4 oz boy...and gosh when I first saw him, I remember a pride so stong, this little boy was mine, lots of black hair...and he was so alert. Awwww, guys daughter are special, but really nothing in this world beats having the love of a son. (now don't be thinking I love him more than Amanda..I don't.)

So anyhow, long story but in the process I have gotten one of the best blessing in my life. So BRANDON PAUL, have a great day to celebrate the day you came into our lives!! Love ya kiddo!!!

Haven't posted in a while....

2005-02-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

I don't know...it has been a weird couple of weeks. I have been mostly down..I don't know why, but I have. Time to pick myself up and start living again. I don't know, it seems like drudgery most of the time. I do housework only to have only to have Amanda (the human cyclone) come right behind me and leave her stuff all over. Alls I can say is her house it gunna be a wreck if'n she don't figure out how to pick up after herself. I exercize, and eat right only to have it not work as well(ok being real here or as fast as I want it) I know in my mind I didn't get this way over night...but it sure would be nice to see some difference SOOON!! You know keep me motivated. But the only place I lose quick is my fingers and my feet. Yep those places were soooo fat to begin with. My size 4 3/4 ring is just a spinning. Rolley eyed dude here!!! And we won't even go into the fact that I wear a size 5- 6 shoe...good lord. Of course the place (my tummy) where I really need it won't budge, no matter how well I do my ab routine. SIIIIGH. Ok sorry if this is turning into a bitch-fest, but some days (well most days) I tell ya. I am sooo sick of salad, cottage cheese, and yogart, I cringe. I need more varity, but am clueless to figure out what I need to be eating. Anyone got any clues or recomendations advice would be nice here.

siiiiigh I am 37 and can't believe that "this is it"

Crossing fingers here again for my daughter...she is adutioning for the part of Annelle in Steal Magnolias..honestly I disagree with some of what they are doing (more on this later) so I won't be crushed if she doesn't get the part. I don't think she will be either...but it would be nice for her to land a part all by herself (it is what she wants)

Alrighty guys have a great day, I am done bitching for now. Talk to ya all soon. Take care, and (((((HUGS))))))

I have found the key~~

2005-02-16T05:40:00.000-08:00

What key you might ask. The key to getting more hours at work, tell them you are seriously concidering leaving, OMG...I now have more hours than I know what to do with. The 9 to 6 shift lately. And starting next week, I will be covering for one of the guys who will be on perternaty leave...2 to 3 solid weeks of work, can we do that cash register noise...will be nice, to make what I used to.

Also found another key in my life. The key to living with a bi-polar is to have her take her meds regularly...OMG, she had been screwing around and not on meds, WOW~~I lived with THAT?She is now needless to say, taking her med EVERY day. I don't care if she feels like it or not.

I have to give my son a huge kudos here...as she fell into a rage saturday, he was the one who managed to calm her and the whole family down...Big tears here gals, my son siiiigh, I am soooo proud of him. Pssst, did ya all know his birthday is coming up? Yep he will be 14 on the 27th and I look at him, and can't believe the passage of time. Where did my little boy go?? He has grown so much (physically, and mentally) this past year, I am just amazed. He bends over to kiss his mommy (when the hell did that happen) and he is starting that phase of gangliness, all arms and legs. Hehehehe, he will grow into a very handsome man...and the lucky girl who catches him, will indeed be very happy with him. AAWWW nothing like a mother's love for her children huh?

OHHH and please cross your fingers for Amanda she is going to be trying out for July Jubliee princess, ok normally I disagree with this kinda stuff but she wants it...sooo cross our fingers. What is July Jubliee you may be asking, well it is North Bends celebration of our town's "birth" ya know what I mean? the Jubliee princess is the gals who ride in the parade, waving ect. Hey it gives her something else to think about. right?

Well that is about it...take it easy gals....((((HUGS))))

Valentines day~~

2005-02-14T05:26:00.000-08:00

Well dears it is valentines day~~I am wishing you all a great loving day. I don't normally do much for this holiday (as I feel it is really a kinda of rip off holiday) the sales industry telling us to "show our love" EXCUSE ME, but really no one needs to tell me to set aside a day for doing good for my loved ones~~What a load of crap!! I did buy Joey and the kids a little something, but I don't get elobrate. And I don't expect them to either. Honestly EVERYDAY should be valentines day...don't ya think?

Anyhow for the last month or so I have been trying to find love for myself...I know that sounds weird or self serving, but I honestly am beginning to think if we don't love ourself, nothing can get accomplished. Loving ourselves means taking care of ourselves. I have been trying to stay more positive rather than negative....somedays it works somedays not. Anyhow I have sorta found a "cure" for this...instead of having the attitude of "I have to get this done" or I gotta do this tomorrow" at the end of EVERY day..I have started to write journalize things I have managed to do...for myself, my family or my house. My friend calls them wows. the last week or so I lost my wows and guess what...my attitude hasn't been the best. So my friends, to find a quick self esteam booster...start thinking about this little "wows" in life, or the little things you did get done. So really that is my wish for all of you on this "day of love"

Treat yourself good, and find a wow, or at least one positive thing. I know it has helped me. OHHH BTW, I can :) big today...I am down 3lbs. Wooooohooooo, not that the scale is the end all beat all. But with all this work it is good to see some sort of progress.

Many (((((HUGS))))) to all of you!!!! :)

This was kinda neat~~

2005-02-10T04:36:00.000-08:00

A JAR AND TWO CUPS OF COFFEE

When things in your life seem almost too much tohandle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar...andthe 2 cups of coffee...A professor stood before his philosophy class and hadsome items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up avery large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golfballs. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles andpoured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into theopen areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again ifthe jar was full. They agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and pouredit into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He askedonce more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous"yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee fromunder the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectivelyfilling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.The golf balls are the important things-your God,family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions-- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, yourlife would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like yourjob, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued,"there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will neverhave room for the things that are important to you.Pay attention to the things that are critical to yourhappiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be timeto clean the house and fix the disposal."Take care of the golf balls first -- the things thatreally matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired whatthe coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad youasked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."Please share this with someone you care about. I JUSTDID.

Happy monday, and weekend postings here.....

2005-02-07T05:17:00.000-08:00

Well not much on the weekend front here, cept hubby went and watched the super bowl with a friend of ours, meanwhile said friend's wife and I went for a drive and had lunch, we drove to a little town about a half hour away from us and had a nice little lunch then we drove around looking at houses, you know the fancy ones that neither one of us could ever own, but would love to one day. I was baffled that this little hick town had so many nice houses. Hehehehehe!! But also looking at these huge places I imagine that they would be a bitch to clean..don't ya think with all those windows and square footage?

Then it was home to go over last weeks diet/exercize plans.....my friend took a look at mine and said, "maybe you need to back away from the salads abit.....well no wonder I am feeling like a bunny ;) hehehehehe. No seriously this is not a DIET persay, rather than just a more healthy way of eating....taking less for portions (and then still at the end of the meal leaving one bite of food on my plate) Cutting fats, sugars, and adding water, and exercize to the plan. I CAN eat whatever my family eats, I just eat less of it. And then I am also back to "firmin" it with the FIRM. I do really like this work out....at times it kicks my hiney, but I imagine that is what it is suppose to do. But yesterday we got in a full workout, and I can say I didn't wimp out on most of it....and I am not even sore today...wooooohooo that my friends is progress. Another good thing about this program is it doesn't hurt my back which most of them do. We also have a nice little strip of walking we use, if it is nice weather, or when we don't feel like working out indoors. I feel so much better about it this time around. My friend is going to a nutrition support group done through our hospital, and she is sharing the information with me...I will take the class in May (I hope) I couldn't this time around, and the money for the class was not there...but I am getting the basics. And I have cut my coffee consumption way down...I do still allow myself coffee, but I now drink out of regular size cups, instead of the HUGE ones and I only have 2-3 cups a day (now mind you I was drinking, 2-3 of the huge cups) so I have basacally cut that in half, and with the amount of creamer I use this is a good thing...no a GREAT thing.

I have also added water to my routine, I never used to drink water...only problem with this is: Does anyone know why the more water I drink the more thirsty I become? On average in the last week, I have gotten in anywhere from 30-60+ ounces a day-this much from someone whoes only source of water came in the form of coffee- and I swear I am dying of thirst. HHHHMMMMM, this can't be right. Any clues let me know...K.

I haven't heard from that job application I put in, yet....I am hoping beyond hope that they are still going over the applications...but if not, that is ok too. My time will come. Waiting has never been a big thing with me.

Well girls, that is about all...I hope you all have a great week!!! My thought are with each one of you as you face you weeks, take care!!! ((((HUGS)))))

Happy Friday everyone~~

2005-02-04T03:29:00.000-08:00

Gosh I know I haven't been on much, I have been super busy. I am trying to organize my house can we say MAJOR PROJECT HERE!! Exercize, and beef up my career. Let no one say, I don't multi-task. No I guess I just figured I needed a major overhall in my life. Wow huh? I sure hope I am not trying to tackle to much at once. I haven't heard from that place that I dropped off an application, and it has been a week...I sure hope, they are still going over the applications. Still crossing everything you can guys? Yes, great!! My "diet and exercize" program, is more of a "healthier lifestyle" with adding more whole grains, and water" and taking away fats, sugars, and the extra stuff I don't need. Exercize is the hard one, but I am trying to fit it into my life. Not the other way around, as I was doing last time.

Since, last week my hours have picked up a bit...some of that due to the comment I posted about last week...remember how mad I was that someone "announced" I was leaving work...well I talked to the "big boss" about it, and made sure that everyone knew I wasn't mad, just that financially I couldn't afford 10 hours a week. She said, I will see what we can do.....so Poof I have more hours this week, don't know about next week. I sure hope I find something more stable, as this is driving me crazy, not knowing when I work, for how long, and at what place.

Miss Manners has had a kinda rough week, school is overwhelming her...any suggestions?? I still think they push them to hard...but what do I know..right?

Well all I hope you week has been a good one, and if not, I sure hope you remember that I am here~~feel free to drop me a line every now and then. I may not be able to solve what is going on in your life, but it sure helps to have someone listen~~((((HUGS))))) OHHH I leave you with a funny I hope you enjoy:

> >Dear Mom... > >A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed > >was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope >propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, >"Mom." >With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter >with trembling hands: > >Dear Mom, It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had >to >elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad >and >you. I've been finding real passion with John and he is so nice -even >with >all his piercing, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's >not >only the passion mom, I'm pregnant and John said that we will be very >happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of >firewood >for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and >that's now one of my dreams too. John taught me that marijuana doesn't >really hurt anyone and we'll be growing, it for us and trading it with >his >friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll >pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so John can get better; he >sure >deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm >15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Some day I'm >sure >we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren. > >Your daughter, Judith > >PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I >just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my >report card which is in my desk drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe >for me to come home.

whew busy week......

2005-01-28T05:41:00.000-08:00

Ok on top of working every day this week....I went in to get those papers for that class...haven't had time to even look at them, but maybe just maybe I won't have to...ok hold on to your hats here G/Fs....I am applying for 2 new positions. These just sprang up this week, so here is hoping I will get one of them. The one I really want isn't even with my present company. It is 40 hrs a week, and I get to be more involved in the planning, paper work, and assesments, ect. Plus it pays 80-someodd cents more an hour than I am making now(after 5 years their starting wage is more)...so that works out to be about $400 a month more than I was making last spring (almost like a 3rd check a month.) Wooooohooooo!!! Is it in the child care profession you ask..Yep it sure is. And really there is nothing wrong with working with kids, I am good at it. Today is the closing date for the application, so please please cross everything that can be crossed, I really want this. (at least for now I do LOL) Anyhow other than that...tonight is the start of our last week on the play...gosh I will be glad to have my life back!! But also the preformances have been going so well, it will be sad to not see the cast. I am not planning on getting into any other plays at this time. I need a break away from that. I am working on getting my life back in gear, which includes finding a more satasfactory job, getting my house in order, and exercizing...I have done 3 nights this week...and feel better than I have in a long time. I now realize that Amanda will be Amanda and no amount of worry is going to stop her from making mistakes, and or losing her temper. It has been a long road with her...I tell ya. This last few months living with normal has been soooo weird ( I know that is really silly to all of you, but I needed to say it) so anyhow..I am off here, working today, and turning in my application.....I sure hope something comes of it!!! :) (((((HUGS)))))) to ya my friends!!!

Something positive today~~Just to make ya smile :)

2005-01-25T05:15:00.000-08:00

This is awesome! We all should think like this. Today is no special day and I have no particularreason for writing to you... I have no news to tell you.... nor any problems to discuss with you.... or gossip to tell you... It's only one of those happy moments... when I thought of you... and I would like to share these thoughts with you... MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE... Always have good self esteem... Take care of your friends, especially those dearest toyou... Take care of your body... But most of all find time to relax... A Big Hug from your friend... Pass this on to all of your FRIENDS.. And if youreceive this e-mail many times from many differentpeople, it only means that you have many FRIENDS. Andif you only get it but once, do not be discouraged foryou will know that you have AT LEAST ONE GOOD FRIEND.........ME

The past week, I have hooked up with a friend of mine that moved away a couple of years ago...we sorta lost contact and she sent this to me this morning in my EMAIL....so I thought I would share with you guys. Have a great day...and (((((HUGS)))))

Uptdate~~

2005-01-16T09:15:00.000-08:00

Gosh, I haven't posted in a long time...just thought I would let ya all know I am still kicking. Been kind of a weird couple of weeks around here....Maybe it is the post holiday blahs...I don't know. Hubby and I have been fighting, not bad just ya know, after 20 years or so...the little things start to pile up, and all that wonderful married people stuff. To be honest it really all boils down to the financial stuff....siiiiigh, we are going on 6 months here that I haven't put much income into the house. Sooooo, I find out friday that subs, aren't really suppose to make a "livable income" this starts me thinking, "I want to be a sub....why?" Come on people make it worth my while. But they prolly won't. So again, I am prolly gunna have to fly the coop. I am not sure what I am hanging on for. It hasn't gotten much better sooooo. LMAO sometimes I have to be hit upside the head. Anyhow, I guess the problem is I am not sure what I want to do. That and there is not much work around here. Lord, I thought being an adult was easy....but it is not. So through all the stress, Joe and I sorta pick at each other, which is "normal" for us. Finally we both get sick of it, talk it out...and now we need to work on a plan of action. It will work out, I know it...just the getting there is the problem. Somehow in my youth I wasn't taught many goal setting skills, and/or I didn't have a burning desire to be much of anything career wise so I am at odds trying to figure out what I can or want to do. (does that makes sense?) I was sent some paper work on a free class called "what can I be when I grow up. and How to get there from here." I signed up. But it is a 3 month class. I was already preschelduled to work the first class...so the instructor is letting me do the first class on my own...I wonder if I can do all of it on my own, and get it done before March.....HHHMMMM now there is a thought.

Anyhow second week of the play is almost at an end, GREAT audience last night!!! wooooohoooo, love to play to an active audience makes it easier. UUUMMM my throat thing, has spread to alot of the cast, most of us are losing our voices...woooops. Mine is still not working right, but hey so what if I sound like miney mouse. If Demi can do it so can I. LOL, I wonder why on her the "gravel thing" sounds sexy on me just bad. OHHH well!!

I hope this finds all of you happy, and in good sprits. Please keep your fingers crossed that something will turn up for me, here pretty quick. Or better yet, that I will finally get the courage that I need to make changes in my life. :) (((((HUGS))))) to all!!!

Opening night, and stuff~~

2005-01-08T10:09:00.000-08:00

So last night our play opened. It was pretty ok.....well could have been better. There is a saying: If dress rehersal goes well opening night won't. Well that sorta summed it up not that it was bad, just not great. let's see what when wrong. Tinkerbell missed a whole scene...wooops but that was ok the guy who plays Peter managed to cover. One scene change didn't get done. Hooks lantern didn't get blown out, but again he covered. The Nanny (me) has almost no voice....now this is fun people, trying to project when I can't hardly even talk. Then my voice will crack or go out, which makes me nervous, then my memory starts to fade...YIKES. BUT, the audience did laugh at my faint. HEHEHEHE!! The very last scene of the first act, the Darling children have flown out the window, the Nanny comes on stage to find them, after looking in hiding spots and calling out their name, her attention goes to the window glancing out, she sees something frightening, gasps, covers her mouth, then back up to the bed,sits down, and swoons....HEHEHEHE I DID IT!!!! The congestion that I have had for the past week or so has moved up to my throat area. As of last tuesday Joey said "that is it, we are getting you back on your Cleritin...it is working (when I remember to take it) So I have figured that this "crud" is allergies, prolly due to the cat. However I refuse to get rid of him, Amanda would be sooo crushed, so I will have to figure a way to keep him. Maybe we can start brushing him, or something.

OHHHH and it did snow here last night, just a slight dusting...it would have been pretty to watch but it didn't start till sometime in the middle of the night. It is not bad, wonder IF we will get more. We are not forcasted for it, so it should be ok.

Well that is about it for me today, have a great day guys!!! (((((HUGS)))))

Dress Rehersal and other stuff~~

2005-01-07T02:50:00.000-08:00

Well we had dress rehersal, and it went well...very well. Tink did a great job, Peter, and Wendy, John and Michael...OHHH heck the whole cast did a wonderful job!! Way to go!! We were so stressed thinking we weren't ready (and really it hasn't seemed like we were) guess it just took a live audience to get us "on the ball" So tonight is officially opening night, I don't feel as stressed about it....except, I sure in he hell hope my voice lasts. I have had a bad sore throat, with cough for about a week, and I am thinking it is allergies...the kitty finally caught up with me....siiiiigh. I have to keep this under control as we can't get rid of him. I refuse Amanda needs something to love, that is just hers.....and Boo seems to be it. :)

Well I may have to be looking into other options for work....maybe. I am not getting called out as much as I had planned, and we can't make it on only about 10 to 20 hrs a week. I will be the first to admit that some of this could be that I have not had the best attitude since going back. I would have honestly thought that they would understand, as I went through a MAJOR life changes, and that kinda put me in a depression, that I feel like I am finally coming out of....but I guess or it feels like they couldn't wait. HHHHMMMMM so much for friendship, and loyalty. I will work through this too. Seems as if life is one giant process that we have to work through. I also have to believe that this could be a blessing in desquise (spelling goof sorry) I don't know, it just seems like if it is not one thing it is another. I finally feel good about myself, my daughter's progress, my marriage, how my son is doing, and all the important things...and poof work is getting real bad again. The words "You will always be a part of our team, Liz" haunt me all the time....pffffft, well if I am a member then why does it seem like no one wants to work with me. And no it is not cause they don't call in people...I hear and see other subs getting called in all the time. And I know it sounds selfish but.....With 5 years experince, it seems I should be getting way more hours than I am. I also feel a distance from people who I used to laugh with. I am on the outside looking in. Siiiiiigh. But on a happier note...when I am with the kids, it is great. The last two days, those kids have made me feel special, and like a great teacher :) Gotta love them kids. but then again work has always been a huge doubt in my mind...so really these feeling I am having don't seem to be "out of the norm" for me. So I wonder if with that thought there really is my answer. Then again, there are more places I could go to sub at...maybe if I wasn't so available, they might get the hint.

Todays brag goes out to my hubby: It takes a "real man" to be able to wear a Kilt compleate with bloomers, and run around stage in front of people acting all crazy. He can laugh at himself so easy, it is soooo cool. Joey, I love ya babe you are the BEST!!! hey I like this and maybe I might just put in a "brag of the day" everyday. Could be fun huh....so hey maybe I might wanna brag on you guys a bit...ya think? LOL

So I guess that is it for now, it is 3am and I have been up for about an hour, and I seriously think I will go back to bed, and sleep for a little bit more. I did that yesterday and felt so much better, gots to take care of me ya know? Tonight is opening night, I sure hope it goes as well as it did last night....well maybe a bit better, but I won't worry about it....what will be will be, and I will try and laugh no matter what. Have a great day guys~~~((((((HUGS))))))

OHHH my gosh, I forgot to add today is the day that Joey first asked me to be his girlfriend....eeeerrr uuuuummm 21 years ago, WOW huh?!? I didn't realize it, till I looked at this post and saw the date, I just had to say something.....cause well ya know, it is a special day for me.

I won't complain anymore.....

2005-01-05T05:28:00.000-08:00

Ok, I know yesterday I was in a snit about my feet being cold...after reading a few blogs this morning...I see some of my bloggin buds out there are dealing with alot of worse crap than I am...Teach, April, and Steph...you all stay safe and warm!!!

This kind of weather scares me something fierce...prolly cause I am not used to driving it it at all....worse point most of the people here aren't used to it either. Case in point, I left my house at about 1:30 in the afternoon, now mind you I live on a country what I call a wooop-dee-doo road with curves. Our road loops around the bay, and most days I take the back way. Which goes around the bay, it is longer that the highway, but not as much traffic, and a nice way to unwind after work(DL blaring on the CD player) anyhow in the morning hubby tells me to "take the highway way" well I am thinking....HMMMMM it is in the afternoon, and things SHOULD pretty much be defrosted, don't ya think. So it is the back way I go....I get around this curve, and low and behold there is flares all over the road. I slow down, course I wasn't going very fast anyways...and I see this car upside down in the other lane of the road....the guy lighting the flairs comes over to my window and says this older gentleman, was coming around the corners pretty fast, and hit a patch of black ice.....I am like "where is the black ice" he says, "all through here."
"GREAT!!" Yes you can detect the sarcasm there. So I putt along, and am fine. The guy in the car was fine, he actually was standing beside his wrecked car when I pulled up beside it.

So ya see it is stuff like that that makes me so much hate any little bit of ice or snow, people here just don't know how to drive in it. I don't drive in it....if I got to be somewhere, hubby takes me. I know this is a wimpy attitude, but my fear alone would prolly cause me to get in a wreck.

Dentist appointment yesterday...went pretty good. Well you know as well as can be expected...gots to take better care of my teeth. But no cavities. I learned something too, a couple of weeks where my teeth were just hurting something awful...she said could have been caused by sinus pressure. When the sinuses swell up, it puts pressure on those nerves...HHMMMM no wonder it went away, now if the sinuses would just start acting right, all would be fine!! :)

Well, enough of my rambles...have a great day people~~~stay warm if ya can!! ((((((HUGS)))))

Shame on me....

2005-01-04T13:19:00.000-08:00

I am sitting here, playing on the computer when I could be doing soooo much more! LOL, I don't know..I am tired, today. Guess it is the fact that it is HELL week for the play, yep folks we finally open on friday, with full dress rehersal on thrusday (what full rehersal means is we have "freebe" night, an audience comes in to watch. Gosh I hope we are ready!! That and we all are fighting THE NEVERENDING COLD or FLU...I have no idea what it is, but this stuff just won't give up. Poor Brandon is so tired, and feeling pretty bad...little rest to be had, what with practice and all. I feel for him. I keep telling him, just a couple of days....:) (((HUGS))) to the little guy (ooohhh what am I saying, he has gotten to where he has to bend down to give him mommy hugs, now that is a weird one, I tell ya) LOL

It is cold here, ok I know you all are not having any simpathy for me, but dang my little tootsies are just half frozen, and I even have my socks and shoes on...what is a girl to do to get her feet warm? LMAO well there is one thing, but no hubby here so...DARN!!

Well, that is pretty much it in my small little world.....have a great day guys (((((HUGS))))

:) :) :)

First things first~~

2005-01-02T06:48:00.000-08:00

Ok let me just say, my cat is UUUGGGly~~OMG, I sure hope people don't see me as that ugly. But the description is about right.

Anyhow first day of the new found me, cleaning with taking my christmas decorations down...my house is now nekkie and kinda depressing.

This year we didn't get to enjoy the decorations very long...and ya know I think that is why it was so hard for us to find the christmas sprit. I talked with hubby last night, and next year we are going to decorate the "normal" way for us. Earlier...because of the Birthdays we didn't do much for decorating until after the 18 and man that was alot of work for just a couple of weeks.

For christmas he got a whole new set of outside lights...from my older brother, LMAO brother gives hubby something almost every year to do with the outside stuff...course I think I was on the phone with my brother this year when hubby was hanging lights...OMG did hubby suck the joy out of decorating...see we had lost almost half of our lights. So we have decided to change things abit...instead of the cheapy icicle twinkle lights, we are going to go with the bigger ones....that way if one bulb goes out, it can be replaced, instead of losing half the strand. I am pretty excited to see what it will look like next year. It is funny we live out in the country and really not many people see our house, but hubby likes to decorate it up. :) And I have to say when he was not cursing at the lights, it is pretty nice to have all them out.

Anyhow those are my rambles for today...have a great day ladies and~~~(((((HUGS)))))

What kind of cat am I~~LMAO this one is really funny!!!

2005-01-02T06:46:00.000-08:00

You are a Sphinx! You are mocked for your unusual
appearance, but you are very loving and
devoted. People just need to give you a
chance!

What breed of cat are you?
brought to you by

AAHHHH, the last day of the year~~~

2004-12-31T06:39:00.000-08:00

And what will we be doing? Well for starters NO PRACTICE, AND NO WORK!! OMG, two whole days to just do what I want!! Wooooohooooo!!! For tonight spending time with the kiddies, and their friends. Boy child is having a guest over so I will see IF girl child wants one over too~~Games, munchies, hot coco...sounds pretty boring right? Well, I could go out and party, but who likes to wake up starting a new year with a hang over right? LOL, no I don't go out this night cause there is just to many idiots out...Normally we go to a friends house, but she is working this year... :( I will miss our yearly party, but well that is ok...cause really we have all year to spend together, maybe party for no special reason...that sounds good huh?

Resolutions, nope I don't set them...I feel as they were just made to be broken. So what is the point?

So HAPPY NEW YEAR ONE AND ALL!! Have a fun and safe celebration tonight, and everyday of the coming year!!!

Good morning~~

2004-12-30T07:41:00.000-08:00

So hey we are about ready to wrap up a new year...and alls I can say is THANK GOD, this last year was so full of ups and downs for my family, I am so hoping 2005 will be more full of the ups. Although I can look back and say it was a good learning year for me. I learned ALOT. Would I do the same things....if it means my family is happy, you bet ya!!

Right now we are in the mist of tech week at the play...GROAAAAN it is not fun I can tell ya. Late night practices are kicking my hiney. I will be so glad when all this is over. I can't even begin to tell ya what a pain in the butt this one was...nother learning lesson, don't do plays in the winter...makes for waaaay long days. We open on the 7th so I am hoping all goes well with that. Anyhow, hope all you have a great day!!!

Well, shoot...it is over....

2004-12-26T21:32:00.000-08:00

Siiiigh, the holiday is over and my house is quite....got wrapping paper balls still in my livingroom, from the paper fight we got into christmas morning, no I didn't say it was the kids, it was us grown-ups. LOL Tomorrow, I will sweep the remenants away and take down my very sad tree...today I am pretty sad. For some odd reason this year I didn't want to see my family go. No I am not alone, I have Joey and the kids, but "my family" is all long distance. Normally this doesn't bother me to much but this year, it sits heavy on my heart. Siiiiigh, this is an odd feeling for me, as I normally am ready for them to go ooohhh I know that sounds bad, and I don't necessarally mean it to sound mean, but my family is a tad overwhelming. But for some reason this year I feel lonely. Oh damn, I am starting to cry as I type this...siiiiigh :( I know life will go on and I will come out of this. I guess this means we had a pretty good time, and didn't get on each other's nerves huh?)

So lets see, we had a nice dinner christmas eve, and christmas day...the kitty almost had to find a new home, as he got into the pumpkin pie...grrrrr, that was the first thing I woke up to christmas day....kitty prints in the pie. My fault, but it was too hot to put away, as I didn't get it baked till late. I opted to visit and chat with my mom and sister. Speaking of the kitchen, lord anything that could have gone wrong did...well not really, I didn't start a fire, but that was about the only thing bad that didn't happen. Gosh my timing was really off. Oh well we muddled through, and it did turn out to be a pretty nice meal....minus the ham...can you believe I forgot to cook it...rolley eyed dude here. I had to laugh at myself, as I was getting the turkey out of the oven, I am like what are we missing....errrr ummm the ham. Well dang it, so much for that idea. But we had plenty of turkey, so all was good. But it was rather weird to miss cooking a WHOLE HAM. Hahahaha!!! OMG what an air head I am.

Anyhow for christmas, I got a fleece throw blankey, it came in a nice basket, that is perfect for a bread basket for the dinner table, and a planner, a couple of movies, six nice big fluffy towels, a set of flannel sheets(had to return those as they were to wrong size, and I got the LAST set at wall-mart, thank goodness, as I am spoiled and HAVE to have flannel now) and my mother bless her heart...I called her last week all depressed about the money situation, and I guess a couple of days after that she went shopping and picked me up a bonus gift....LMAO it is a figurine of the Burger Mister Burger from Santa clause is coming to town....That is my favorite kiddie christmas movie, and every year I get really excited to watch it, and I do a pretty good impression of Burgermister...I had to laugh. As she knew...but mom's do that don't they. so maybe next year I might have to buy the whole village of them....ya think??? that would be fun. It was pretty slim for us grown ups, but that is ok, watching the kids open theirs was pretty great...Brandon loved the X-box. and Amanda was pretty excited with the BIG phone card...we got her a trac phone last year, but she ran out of service and or minutes...and we hadn't been able to up them...so we got her a years worth of service and like 350 minutes. :) Those were just their big stuff, they got some little stuff too. And I am sure I got some other stuff, I just don't remember it. So I guess it is time for me to get outta here, hope all of you had a GREAT holiday, with lots of love and cheer...I know I did!! :)

Christmas Eve...

2004-12-24T07:51:00.000-08:00

at my house goes something like this... The pies and rolls are to be made today. My son, each and every year wants fresh yeast rolls, and nope they can't be store bought...LMAO I tried one year, and got the sad hang dog look from him with him saying something like, "but mom, you aren't gunna make your fresh rolls this year" so now I do it for a special thing for him. While dough is raising for the rolls, I get on to making the pumpkin, and this year a banana cream pie....as requested. I normally put in the crock pot a soup or something like that...this year is no exception, Elk stew....with corn muffins (I will cheat and make a mix tonight) I will also prep cook for tomorrow, like boil the sweet potatoes, and cut them up in their pan. Cut up the onion and celery for the stuffing. (as onion juice in the eyes at 6:00am is not fun) HHHMMMM what else do I need to do, ooohhh this year Amanda is going to make the muffins that we have for breakfast...so I won't have to do that. All the while trying to keep my house in order...HaHaHa!! I know it sounds like alot of stuff to do, but that is my expression of love to my family.....I sure hope some day they realize how much the holidays mean to me...and try and carry on some of the traditions I have strived for through the years. All our presents are wrapped (thank god Joey doesn't mind doning that as I despise it) I do get to wrap the stocking stuff, YUCK but those don't have to look that good whew. Well, people I am gunna get off here and get my work done, get the house all smelling like a holiday, with all the baking and stuff. Have a safe and merry christmas eve!!

It is time~~~

2004-12-22T06:42:00.000-08:00

So hey this is not going to be a normal post about my going on rambling at my problems, and what I am doing ect...it is time for me to

Wish each and every one of you a very merry christmas! I am sending out this wish as I didn't get in on the christmas card lists. So I hope this will do for all of you.

This season my wish for each and everyone of you and yours is Peace, Love and Happiness.

As you sit down and open your presents, and or eat your traditional dinner with your family and loved ones, know that someone from as far away as Oregon is thinking of you, and sending your way lots of cyber hugs!!

My friends, I don't think I could have made it through the last year without you, and for that I am truly thankful, so as the new year rolls around I will also be thinking of each and everyone of you....being very glad I had you in my life for 2004 and knowing that 2005 will see us through more, but knowing you will be a constant will ease anything that comes our way.

WITH LOTS OF LOVE, AND JOY I SEND YOU WARM CHRISTMAS WISHES!!

Liz, Joe, Amanda, and Brandon

Been gearing up for christmas and stuff.....

2004-12-21T06:28:00.000-08:00

So Hubby's party went good, and he was surprised. The major surprise of the night was that he actaully had guests...no, now it isn't like that, he is a good guy. But....well when we went out to the lights he was acting like he had all the time in the world. It ended up that the people that did come, were about ready to leave. Pffft the silly man, had to take the "long" way to the gardens...and then we get there and traffic was backed up for a 1/4 of a mile...so we wait and wait, then to cruse around the lights...then we went and saw the trains, one of our local fire departemtns has about 6 to 8 BIG tables with train/villages set up. It is very very cool. Well of ocurse the guy there was talk, and talk and talking to Joey, meanwhile the people here are waiting and waiting...so we arive, Joey jumps as he opens the door. Hahahaha I did it pulled off a surprise!!

so the last few days has been spent just working around the house getting things sprused up around here...and finishing the last minute stuff. Whew, I think I will make it this year...and hopefully stress free.

Oh, something I want to post about....as I know how powerful those "pray chains" are. Can you all please say a prayer for my oldest sister. I got a phone call from my oldest brother...and he seems to think it is pretty bad, we still don't know what it is....but if he is worried, well then I guess I will need to be talking with my sis, see if I can get her to finally have that sugery. Ect. I am not going to dwell on it, as I don't want to start my day in tears...but let's just say my brother's phone call has now got me ALOT more worried. So thanks in advance guys, I love ya all. (((((HUGS))))) and have a great day!!!

Thanks

2004-12-17T06:22:00.000-08:00

I personal thanks to those of you who wished my hubby a happy birthday yesterday. Terri, he really chuckled at yours~~I will show him SOL one prolly tonight. UMMMM, you all won't believe the acting ability I have...hehehehe *wink* *wink* SSSHHHH what he doesn't know is Sat is his party, I sat here last night profussly appologizing, and even shed some tears that we couldn't do more for his birthday. OOOHHH am I bad. I hope this party goes off without a hitch. Anyhow I will be super busy the next couple of days with shopping and the party, I hope to check in sunday...have a great and safe weekend everyone, and watch out for the crazed shoppers!!! (((((HUGS))))) :)

OH, Happy Happy Joy Joy~~~

2004-12-16T05:34:00.000-08:00

LOL, seeing as two of my internet friends beat me to it, I guess it is now time for me to be wishing my hubby a

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

So Joey my better half have a great day!!! And remember we love you~~~:D

Hola~~

2004-12-15T05:39:00.000-08:00

Hehehe, how's that for a little spanish. Good morning to all. Hope this finds you all well and good!! I finally got caught up on my reads this AM....thank goodness, as I was having withdrawls but for the past few days with all the pop ups I just kinda got on here, and got off real quick.

Went to Amanda's concert last night...wow did they do a good rendition of Sing the bells? Not remembering the name of that song...anyhow that was their second to last song, IMO he should have saved that for last. But hey what do I know? right? Anyhow on our way home last night she informs us that the class picks who gets to solo and who doesn't. Well, for the past few years I have listened to them, and I gotta say, my daughter can do just as well if not better IMO...now mind you this could be parternal pride, but really I don't think so. Anyhow I don't believe that letting the class pick could possible EVER gain anyone any confidence, ohhh yeah it could confidence in the fact that they are more popular. It really pisses me off, I don't know weather I should just leave it alone or call the music teacher. What do ya think? Any how not much else to say....cept I hope all of ya have a GREAT DAY!! (((((HUGS)))))

Whew~~

2004-12-14T09:56:00.000-08:00

Thanks Kim, I ran that ad scan, and found over 500 "things" on my computer. I think I will have hubby run it again though, after he gets off work...just in case I didn't compleate it properly. It is amazing how much that bogged down my computer. And I can now chat with someone and not have to have the damn thing freeze up cause all the shit clogging it. Sorry for the language gals, but this has been really frustrating me.

Anyhow we survived Amanda's 16th b-day party. We ended up getting her a new sterio system, not one of the cheapy boom boxes, and some other stuff. My G/F wrapped up a huge box, and 16 presents in it. It was pretty funny. Amanda got tons of earings from her friends, then my in-laws sent her a pair to total 19 different pairs of earings. So who knows I might get her second peircing soon. Joe's B-day is next...pssst. did I tell ya he will be 40...hahahaha!!! Anyhow today is a day off for me, so I think I am just gunna relax and take a nap...then do my house work. Have a great days guys~~~((((HUGS)))))

Help, who can help?!?

2004-12-12T05:33:00.000-08:00

Ok so I did a stupid thing..I never download stuff, well one day I decided to download a Yahoo game, and my computer is acting up waaaay bad now, a million pop-ups, running slow ect....Kim before we change my blog you had posted a link for a pop up blocker...can you repost that...Please? I haven't posted much as we have been super busy. Play practice running all hours ect. Been working alot too, I sure hope the pay check is a biggie, as I haven't done much of my christmas shopping...just got Brandon's big one. I think this year is gunna be not many presents under the tree...the biggie, and maybe a few smallish ones. I don't know. I will be on a break after next week as all the centers are closed, which is a good thing...my house can get all done up and cleaned up. Well gals not much else to tell cept this..hope all of you are well and good!! (((( HUGS)))) OHHH yeah we had Amanda's 16th b-day party last night...what fun that was!!! And, her report card came in....can we all say woooooohooo for Amanda!! After failing 6 subjects (all to be made up later) last year..this year she got: 1-A, 5-Bs, and 1-C We are so proud of the way she has pulled herself up and out of all of last years crap!! Way to go baby girl!! :) Mom is way proud of you!! (so is dad btw) Anyhow I will catch you all later!!

It's beginning to look alot like christmas~~

2004-12-05T04:59:00.000-08:00

Around these parts here. We got the tree yesterday, it is very big...I don't know IF we have ever had as big of a one here. Kids and I did the tree while hubby did the lights outside. Why is it they decided not to work on years where we are trying to cut spending. OOOHHH MY lord hubby was grumpy yesterday. I sure hope it doesn't creep into today, or there will be hell to pay. Course the words, "the other half of the strand blew out, I know it did cause I saw the smoke" could have something to do with it. And it seems like when taking on a major project like that is time for all the tools to hide, I don't know maybe they sprouted legs and walked off.....or something. I know maybe the tool fairy took off with them. Wooops sorry, I am not thrilled at how our tree trimming party went yesterday...with the girl child really not wanted to be involved...ohhh of course that is cause none of her friends were here, or it wasn't about them. The boy child was great though....woooohooo, one willing helper. And hey he even had a smile. :) Now if only hubby could find the christmas cheer. Anyhow today is time to get my enertainment center done...I put all the candles, and heavier ornaments on there, under a layer of "snow" and lights....then I do the same with my cedar chest....should look pretty nice, at least I hope so. So with getting the tree in, the cat jumped into it not once, but twice...gunna be a pretty fun year.

Random thoughts about the season,

2004-12-04T07:37:00.000-08:00

Ya know as I was driving to work yesterday I was thinking about posting all the things I really hate about this time of year...then I thought No Liz that is not very positive at all....so I am gunna post about the things I love about this time of year, and also post about the not so great stuff to see which list is bigger...I know kinda weird, but I am so hoping that I can find more to love than not love....and if that is not the case maybe just maybe I need to do a bit of soul searching huh?

THINGS TO LOVE ABOUT THIS SEASON:
1~Driving around, and seeing the lights, coming up on a new one every day. :)
2~The magic in a small child's eyes.
3~Seeing family you may not have seen in quite sometime.
4~The goodies (smirk not good for ya but ya know)
5~Bringing in the christmas tree, and the smell of it, also going along with this one is the hunting of the christmas tree. :)
6~After the house is all decorated, the magic that is the decorations, sigh is there anything better than sitting back after it is all done, with coco in hand, just looking at the christmas tree twinkle.
7~Taking home-made ornaments out of the boxes, and thinking back to the the time when said child made that. :)
8~the surprise as the person gets the gift "they always" wanted.
9~The break from work (ok being honest here who doesn't love time off) LOL
10~The music, I have 5 or 6 CD that I play the crap out of every year. bring a smile to my face just to have them on...as I sing at the top of my lungs, while making the cookies errr peanut butter balls. (course for some that know, I don't sing well so this my be part of my families uuuuggg list LOL)
11~Again back to the smell, of the bright candles, homemade food, and the christmas tree...siiigh, is there a nicer smell in all the world.
12~Getting up VERY early christmas morning, and waiting to see when the other are going to get up. Kind of an alone time.
13~Getting christmas cards in the mail, sometimes from people who you haven't heard from, it is nice to know that you are not forgot.
So you see my friends all is not lost, I can still have the sprit..hehehe ok now on to my "other list" here is hoping it is alot shorter:
1~The cold, ish, my feet will never be warm LOL
2~The rude people, OMG what brings these people out...ya wanna just say, HEY HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS WILL YA!!
3~The money crunch, it always seems like there is never enough to go around, and we could do more. Then again maybe it is time to teach our children the "true meaning"
Guess what I can't think of more.....woooohoooo all is not lost. I got to dwelling the other day about all the bad stuff, and I guess I just needed a mental kick up the backside. I am glad I took the time to really think about this. I will be checking in on this list from time to time, when things start to get hetic, to remember what this season is really about. I hope you all do to. It gets one back on track real easy.

The reason for this "list" persay, I have had some really really bad news from friends of mine here lately, at least 4 people I know either have serious illness themselves, or they are watching a loved one go through a serious illness....I don't know it seems the older I get the more I am faced with my mortality, and it is a scary thing. And my thoughts lately have been kind of dark and depressing, so I just thought I would really see what is important, and what is not...ya know?? Ok ramble done here. Hope all is well....and here comes the (((((HUGS)))))

What's new~~

2004-12-02T07:43:00.000-08:00

So hey I can finally post again...this silly thing hasn't been working all week. Then again not much going on here. It is getting cold. Son has been sick, and practice is killing me. LOL, well no not really, but dang somedays it just seems to go round and round...Ok now I got that song from Ratt running around in my head, sorry you all prolly now got it going on in your head now too...LOL.

Got my hair cut, and I tell ya I need scarf...my neck and ears are FREEZING!! Amanda and Brandon got new hair doos too. (hope that is how you spell it, it looks wrong) anyhow, we are all fine, just gearing up for christmas, and the birthdays of the month. Woooohooo!! I have been working most of the week, so I am pretty tired. We finally got more pirates casted, and there is another play that we (amanda and I) might try out for....Steel Magnolias...I don't know most of the parts are HUGE, so I may not go for it, and lord knows the southern drawl is really not my thang. But I would love to do it. Still on the thinking part here...who knows~~right?? Anyhow that is about all...I really just wanted to check in with ya all and see how you was doing. Hope everthing is well in your worlds. (((((HUGS)))))

It's all good~~

2004-11-28T05:00:00.000-08:00

Dinner yesterday was wonderful...if I don't say so myself. thank goodness I don't cook like that all the time, or I would have some serious weight problems, well more than I do now anyways. Everything turned out great. Was nice, just us and friends, good company, the way it should be. OHHH don't I repeate DON'T rent the movie, Perfect Strangers...OMG what a wacko movie that was. Weird doesn't even begin to describe that one...LMAO course I got a good teasing from the guys about that one I picked. We did however rent Steppford Wives, the first one, and I gotta say, it is better IMO than the second one, course I read the original book...so that could be why I liked it better. Although the twist at the end of the second one was kinda unexpected.

Oh I forgot to post yesterday...took me 20 to 30 minutes at the store the other day, why you ask...buying allergy meds for me and my daughter. Of course we are on 2 different kinds, and meth freeks have made it almost impossible for us to buy the stuff. First I had to stand in line at the pharmacy for regular sudifed, then I had to go to the service desk to get my Cleretin D, and stand in line again...so a real quicky trip to the store took like well I don't know but it seemed like it took FOREVER!! OMG, to have to be IDed just to buy damn allergy meds...what the hell?!? But well I guess if it stops or slows down the freeks who make and sell the stuff, then that would be good. I remember I went to a training a couple of years back, and you guys would be amazed at what the cut into the stuff. I was like, OHHH that is real smart putting THAT in your body. Anyhow that is my rant for today....not a bad one. I guess just a pain in the arse one. I remember reading somewhere for someone this same rant...they lived on the east coast...I eerrr ummm guess us out west are a bit slow in this, so I am sure you all have already put up with this one for awhile. HHMMM I wonder IF it is any faster at the drug store?? Speaking of Rite Aid, is I swear the slowest drug store in town..I called in Amanda's perscription...asked for them to cut it in half so I wouldn't pay the whole amount at once...and they still werent ready a week later...this is like the 3rd or 4th time I have had to wait, last time it took, 3 days for them to get it ready...what the hell if they are that short handed maybe they might wanna think about hiring someone else. I don't know I guess I am getting more impatient with age or something..but it really shouldn't take 3 days to get something ready...or am I being bad?

Anyhow I am sure now that the christmas season is upon us...waiting in line will be pretty much the norm...YUCK. Speaking of, I am feeling that christmas crunch, and the whole comercialism of it all...I don't know about any of you..but I am getting tired of stressing over it. It seems like the true meaning of it is lost in all the shopping, and preparing....SIIIIGH, every year it seems like the same thing, worry, worry, worry...when it shouldn't be that way at all. BIG SIIIIGH again, I hope this year things work out where everyone isn't all stressed and stuff. I guess that really is up to me how I feel about it huh? So ok, I am off here to get some stuff done, today wonder what kind of trouble I can get into today?? Have a great day ladies!! Hope to talk with ya real soon. :)

Back to normal~~

2004-11-27T04:58:00.000-08:00

AAAHHHH, HUBBY IS HOME!! And my smile is back. And yep he got himself a nice elk. A 5 point. Guess I need to learn how to cook the stuff huh? LOL, no a few weeks back I made a real nice stew out of some elk our neighbor had made, so I think all will be good in that department (at least I hope so) Anyhow they came home last night, and life is GOOOOD!! Love that man of mine!! Ok so anyhow glad to hear you all had a safe and happy thanksgiving. We are doing our celebrating today, so it is 5 am, and I am about ready to go get "personal" with a 22 lb turkey, wish me luck girls. So anyhow, I am off here, just a short note to say hi...and let ya know things are back to normal around here!! Love to each and everyone of ya!!

Wrapping up the week....

2004-11-24T06:51:00.000-08:00

Gosh this week has been....something. Yep something is the only word I can use. I have been working, then home for a quick bite to eat, and off to practice. I really never noticed how much slack hubby does actually pick up around here. I guess that is just the way it is...I MISS HIM SO MUCH!! LOL, ya know I try to be this independant woman, and nope, I am a sorry sap. He is due back Saturday, and let me tell ya he best have gotten something for all this. Been doing so much night driving, normally he does that cause I hate it. and to add to the dark, we have this mist sprinkle stuff which makes it all the worse. Oh well, tonight is the last practice until after he gets back, so that will be good. So after much to-do amanda has decided to be in the play after all...as a back up pirate...HMMMMM course her boyfriend sighning up MIGHT have something to do with it...YA THINK??? LMAO Anyhow, the play is going pretty well and all. Oh work is going too. Been in my old classroom again, and all I can say is...how the heck did I do it~~draggin my hiney off to be there at 7:00 am? Must be due to the fact that I don't really have a scheldule, so that is why it is so hard to get up now. I go in today at 11:00 till 2:30, then off to pay some bills(again Joe's job) and off to buy the thanksgiving feast. This year we will be celebrating ours on saturday. It will be me, hubby, kids, and our good friends...so 8 to cook for won't be bad at all. Saturday you say, why is that...well the "men folk" won't be back till then, and we figured it really doesn't matter what day you celebrate just as long as ya do...right?? So tomorrow, my friend and I will do something nice with the kids, prolly dinner with movies, or something like that. Then have the big thing on saturday. As I sit down and remember all that I am thankful for know gals that each and everyone of you are on my list this year...I am so thankful for all the love and support you have given me through this year(some of ya longer than this year) but just know that you all are on my list of thankful things. and I am truly blessed to have you in my life. Even if it is through a keyboard and screen. the friendships are still very real, and much appreciated. So on that note I leave you with a wish that you all have a great thanksgiving holiday this year!! ((((HUGS))))) and love to all!! :D :D :D

Good Morning....

2004-11-19T05:11:00.000-08:00

Wow, it has been almost a week since my latest post. It has been a pretty busy week with me working most of it. Which is a good thing a very good thing. I managed to get over 20 hrs this last week. which is alot more than I have been getting. I guess it worked to let people know I am available, and not just for my old center. Hehehehe. It was a pretty fun week. Working in different classrooms, and seeing different teachers and different styles of teaching.

Anyhow not much else has gone on this week, I talked with my mother thursday night, a phone call I had been dreading.....See, I can't do much for christmas this year...it will be extreamly tight, more so than normal (due to the fact that I didn't work for 3 months) and I am also not getting anywhere close to the hours I was before...so the money is just not there. It is OK I have have come to terms with it....we will just have a small christmas this year. But I was pretty worried that my mother wanted us to travel this year to her house...seeing that will take 2 full tanks of gas, at about $60.00 I just couldn't see the logic in this. Also providing the big meal, was going to be a stretch...Mom said, I don't want to stress over it, and I DON'T WANT YOU TO STRESS OVER IT. Whew, so who knows it might be beans and homemade bread this year. Ok that is in inside thing. Hubby has a childhood memory, I guess one christmas they were doing pretty bad, and instead of turkey with all the trimmings they had navey bean soup, and homemade bread...he says everytime he smells those smells he thinks of that christmas, and fondly. Isn't it funny how we as adults can look back on that stuff. Of course then we were prolly feeling pretty jipped.

Anyhow our plans for christmas are still up in the air. Also please say a prayer for my oldest sister....she has something intestional going on, this condition has been going on for over a year and they don't know what it is. She goes through extream boughts of pain (cramping) and can't keep anything down, or is she does she has the "the other end problem" She has lost 40lbs. So this is another reason my mom is not stressing over christmas....IF we can get my sister out of the hospital for the holidays that will be a good thing. Mom said she has been in the hospital prolly a good 10 times throughout the year, with no success in finding out what is wrong. They mentioned sugery, my my sis said NO....not just no but HELL NO!!!!! When she had my nephew 13 years ago,(C-section) she got a terrible infection, and every since that she has been afraid to death of sugery. I really can't blame her, it was very very bad. I am pretty worried about this, and was not aware of how bad the situation was/is. Sure hope she is ok.

The kids are fine, pretty much normal I guess....LOL. Had a "thing" with Amanda earlier in the week....all the old feelings of helplessness came back. Seems as IF I might have spoken too soon....I don't know, she is super stressed this week, she has a HUGE project due, and it has become a pain in the ass for her, and she is not dealing well with the stress. That is the thing, everyone has off days, or bitchy times, but with Bi-polars EVERYTHING is SO MUCH MORE. SIIIIGH. She had commented that I have been kinda bitchy lately, so fine I am back on my meds again too. So we will see what happens in the next few weeks, please say another prayer that things don't turn on us again, I just cringe at the thought of going through all that again.

Son is fine, he is working on a project for a class that involves him making a robot, heheheehe he tore apart an old sterio and found 10 motors in it, so those will be donated for his super robot. I wonder how well it will go. He has been super quite lately...which makes me go HMMMMMM.

Hubby leaves tonight on a week long hunting/camping trip....SIIIIGH, ok deary I get a week one of these weeks...Ya think?? LOL, wish him luck, that he gets an elk. Well this is prolly long enough for all of ya, hope to hear from ya, and hope everyone if feeling good.....((((HUGS)))) to all!!!

Early Saturday Morning~~

2004-11-13T04:23:00.000-08:00

Good Morning, all it is about 4:30 on Saturday morning, can we all say it is gunna be a long day?? LOL, I don't know my sleep pattern is prolly messed up again. But I do that alot. I have been working for the past few days, nothing new there...cept it is work. I also work alot next week, so I may not have much time for reading and whatnot..but I never forget about ya.

Last night we "movied out" we watched Stepford Wives, now I read that book over the summer, and just had to get the movie...was alot different than the book, I may have to dig around to see if I can find the book, and read it again....the movie was pretty good IMO, and it did explain alot more than the book. In the book it never really says why the woman go beserk, and it left you hanging...with Nichole Kidman's character going beserk, and that was the end. So yep I was glad to see closure on that part of it. We also watched Day after tomorrow, it was pretty good...errrr well what I watched of it. LMAO I hate it when I am watching a movie and I doze off and on...it gets very confussing..hehehehe and hubby just rolls his eyes at me.

So not much to post about this morning, guess I just wanted to say HI....I think here pretty quick I am gunna get off here, and start on my house work...do it early, and get it done...then maybe I won't have to think about it all weekend. I really do hate house work, and can never seem to stay caught up. Any clues as to how to stay caught up??? Anyhow so you all have a great day, ((((HUGS))))